Do you ever think that every game of solitaire is able to be won, but we screwed it up somewhere in placing the 5 of hearts on the 6 of spades and got all of the cards out from under it, instead of just moving the 5 of diamonds over to the 6 of spades?
Ladies and..Um..Ladies? (no one reads this thing) It is OFFICIALLY summer when your up at 2:44 AM and the thought of how to win solitaire is plaguing you for an answer...Whoa...SOMEONE needs a life...(not just all of you who are thinking..WTF? She's crazy...oooohhh Insomniac Theatre is on...).
But really..What do you think? I mean, do you think that you actually have the chance to win every solitary game of solitaire (you see what I did there? Solitary game of solitaire?? LOL...Maybe not..).
I'm thinking that some smarty smart at Yale or Harvard or STANFORD wrote an published a study on this for something...Hum..I'll have to search for that on google when I'm bored enough...Or tomorrow...Which ever comes..Um...Yeah..
This is a little crazy. This is like "Ruminations" only I am not a 23 year old ex-frat boy who is full of himself...Or AM I?
hehe. Just trying to see if your paying attention there.
Nope, I'm a 16 year old idiot who is up at 2:50 AM playing solitaire and listening to the greatest hits of Hootie and the Blow fish...Pathetic..I know..and playing solitaire..YOU HAPPY NOW?
Wow...I use "..." to separate a lot of things.
Ash and I were talking about this one day. I wonder what "..." Translates into during my normal speech? I mean, some times I'll say "dot dot dot" but that's just when no ones talking, or I just don't wanna say "ect. ect.". Ohhh maybe that's it. Lets see.
"Ash and I were taking about this one day. I wonder what "ect. ect. ect." translates into during my normal speech?".
Yeah..So maybe that's not it..
LOL I SWEAR I'm over here trying NOT to put "..." In my blog. But it's SO hard. Because a single period looks odd now.
HOLY CRAP.(...) I just read all of what I have been saying. Let me tell you now that there happens to be NO alcohol present in my system..Damn...But DAMN I'm talkin' like Barrett that night..LOL.
OK OK I'm gonna go now and run with scissors.
Those people who told me I needed help..whatever...I'm a normal teenager!
Friday, June 25, 2004
Thursday, June 24, 2004
What a NICE day...
Ahhh are you feelin' it? Are ya? Are you shaking your head going, "WTF? is she talking about?"
I'M talking about the wonderful feeling of being just splendid..
Today I didn't do much of anything. I woke up about 12:45, and talked to Ash for a little while, then I took a shower and got dressed in my bathing suit and met mom at the pool.
I got to the pool, and mom said that not a lot of people would be there...and there weren't THAT many people...but there was a crap load of little kids...:(
So I layed out for a bit and read my magazine and listened to my cd (mainly of THE KILLERS...Love it!! *sing it Ash!!*) and just basically had a grand 'ole time relaxing!
After taking some dips and swiming for a bit, I decided to come home and get some dinner..
Well I came home and after about an hour or so, I decided that I needed to eat because I was gettin' kinda hungry. Mom gave me some moolah and I went to sonic and got a kids meal.. (I got some COOL blue glasses for a toy). After dinner I went walking.
While I was walking, I was about half of the way down the second block..and I'm in my own little world listening to my music when I look over and coming up beside of me was this REALLY tan person in a hot pink shirt..It was Ashley Sumner. Just as I was looking over to see who it was she goes "COURTNEY!!" and I was like HOLY SHIT YOU SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF ME!!!
We walked along together for a little while and we chatted then she went back to running and I just kept walking.
Overall, a sugcessful walk. I saw Chance for like the first time in a month and I YELLED at him as he was waving when he passed. I saw Sammy and Johnathon on thier way somewhere (OOOOOOO!!) and I saw Ashley when she was driving down main street, again.
After my walk, I just came home..
Now I'm just chillin' and watchin' some tube and talkin' to my buds online..
Emma...sorry I missed your message! But YEAH when you come home for holiday..we're TOTALLY gonna get together and see eachother!!! Miss ya!! Also, check my AIM profile everyonce in a while..I can't post comments on your blog for some reason...
Here's a GREAT song by The Killers... Somebody told me..
Breaking my back just to know your name
Seventeen tracks and I've had it with this game
I'm breaking my back just to know your name
But heaven ain't close in a place like this
Anything goes but don't blink, you might miss
'Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight
Well, somebody told me you had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential, I've got potential
Ready lets roll onto something new
Takin' it's toll and I'm leaving without you
'Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight
Well, somebody told me you had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential, I've got potential a rushin' a rushin' around
Pace yourself for me
I said maybe, baby, please
But I just don't know now
When all I wanna do is try
Well, somebody told me you had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential, I've got potential a rushin' a rushin' around
Somebody told me you had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential, I've got potential a rushin' a rushin' around
I'M talking about the wonderful feeling of being just splendid..
Today I didn't do much of anything. I woke up about 12:45, and talked to Ash for a little while, then I took a shower and got dressed in my bathing suit and met mom at the pool.
I got to the pool, and mom said that not a lot of people would be there...and there weren't THAT many people...but there was a crap load of little kids...:(
So I layed out for a bit and read my magazine and listened to my cd (mainly of THE KILLERS...Love it!! *sing it Ash!!*) and just basically had a grand 'ole time relaxing!
After taking some dips and swiming for a bit, I decided to come home and get some dinner..
Well I came home and after about an hour or so, I decided that I needed to eat because I was gettin' kinda hungry. Mom gave me some moolah and I went to sonic and got a kids meal.. (I got some COOL blue glasses for a toy). After dinner I went walking.
While I was walking, I was about half of the way down the second block..and I'm in my own little world listening to my music when I look over and coming up beside of me was this REALLY tan person in a hot pink shirt..It was Ashley Sumner. Just as I was looking over to see who it was she goes "COURTNEY!!" and I was like HOLY SHIT YOU SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF ME!!!
We walked along together for a little while and we chatted then she went back to running and I just kept walking.
Overall, a sugcessful walk. I saw Chance for like the first time in a month and I YELLED at him as he was waving when he passed. I saw Sammy and Johnathon on thier way somewhere (OOOOOOO!!) and I saw Ashley when she was driving down main street, again.
After my walk, I just came home..
Now I'm just chillin' and watchin' some tube and talkin' to my buds online..
Emma...sorry I missed your message! But YEAH when you come home for holiday..we're TOTALLY gonna get together and see eachother!!! Miss ya!! Also, check my AIM profile everyonce in a while..I can't post comments on your blog for some reason...
Here's a GREAT song by The Killers... Somebody told me..
Breaking my back just to know your name
Seventeen tracks and I've had it with this game
I'm breaking my back just to know your name
But heaven ain't close in a place like this
Anything goes but don't blink, you might miss
'Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight
Well, somebody told me you had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential, I've got potential
Ready lets roll onto something new
Takin' it's toll and I'm leaving without you
'Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight
Well, somebody told me you had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential, I've got potential a rushin' a rushin' around
Pace yourself for me
I said maybe, baby, please
But I just don't know now
When all I wanna do is try
Well, somebody told me you had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential, I've got potential a rushin' a rushin' around
Somebody told me you had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential, I've got potential a rushin' a rushin' around
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
What a day..
Lets start from the begining, shall we?
So this morning, I went to bed around 5:30 AM. That wasn't so bad, I mean I watched some quality movies (Edward Sissor hands and In the Army Now). So I finally fell asleep to the news this morning.
I was awoken by my dad.
At first he was kinda wispering "Courtney.....courtney..." then he goes "COURTNEY!" and I was like "WTF? WTF??? WTF ARE YOU DOING??" and I realized it was dad.
I was suprised because usually I hear people messing with my lock on my door, and I'm like ready for them to walk in. But this time he caught me off guard.
He had come in to tell me that he was leaving me $20 and the gas card. And then I was like "OOOO thanks Daddy!!!" and he asked if I was still going to the game and I said yeah and that I was going with Ash and Mikel.
THEN dad goes "Well..I'm gonna go get some breakfast, you want something? It's only 8 AM" and I was like "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM? I WENT TO BED THREE HOURS AGO...LET ME SLEEP DAMMIT"
Well..that did it, I was awake.
I attemped to go back to sleep, but I couldn't so I was up...
Since I was up I was like... OK lets do something PRODUCTIVE today and not just sit on my ass all day until the game tonight..
So I took a shower, and dad came home and wanted me to go with him to get something for his new truck (OOOO BTW: dad got a new car..so I got the Maxima..NO MORE GHETTO WAGON!!) and so we went to do that.
On the way back home, he went to this little back road, and we switched places. I was like freaking out, because this thing was like HUGE and I didn't know how to drive it. It didn't help that DAD was in the car..because he kept yelling out stuff like "SLOW DOWN!!"...and I was like..I HAVE my damn license...CHILL OUT DUDE.
So we were going around this one corner and he goes "WOULD YOU SLOW THE (ALMOST SAID THE "F" WORD) DOWN?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!" and I was like HOLY CRAP chill dude.
So we got home IN ONE PIECE and I got out and said "The NEXT time I drive your car YOU WON'T be in it!!!!"
So after that, I kinda hung out around the house. I vacumed, and I semi dusted around and talked to Ash on the internet.
Finally, when Ashley had gone to take a shower and get ready, I decided to take another shower.
So I did. It was good. I DEEP conditioned my hair for almost 20 minutes... I was like the girl in the Herbal Essence comercial...only I didn't yell...I was just happy my hair was all nice and smooth and shiney!
So I got out, and I got to relax and get dressed. I put smelly good lotion on like every inch of my body (OOO LALA!) and then I dried my hair, and straigted my hair and put my make up on (I felt like a girl for the first time in like a week). I was SOOO pumped. Ash, Mikel and I have been trying to go to a Surry Pride game for like EVER and tonight we were meeting at ARRRRRRRRRRRBY'S then we were going to ES to watch the game.
So I go to Ashley's house, and I gave her the CD that I burned (ALL JOHN MAYER!!!! WITH AN AWESOME COVER!!!!) and we listend to that on the way to eat and meet Mikel!!
We got to Arby's and we sat and were waiting for Mikel.. We laughed for like 30 mins without stopping..it was CRAZY. Half the time we weren't even talking, we would just like look at eachother and bust out laughing. It was GUUUUUEEEEEEERRRRREEEEEEAAAATTTT time!!!
THEN Mikel got there..after scaring the SHIT out of me, we all just sat there for like 10 minutes laughing..Then we ordered some food, and then we laughed some more...then we ate a little (the pattern continues).
Then a lot of out friends from school came (Lauren Wood, Cat, RANDY) and we chatted for a while. Then we were OFF!
We got on 52 together. But I was feelin' semi-nervous, so I was like flooring it on the way down. I felt kinda bad, because Mikel and Ashley were behind me and I kinda left them..but they needed thier privacy (or so I tell myself). So we get to East Surry's ball field..and it was EMPTY...I was like WTF? So Ash went and asked some people that were playing tennis what was going on..no info. So I said "Well...there's a timy chance that they're back at MA.." and I thought that Mikel was getting a little annoyed and he was just like "Well..why don't we GO BACK and see" and I was like..."umm..ok"
So we headed back to MA. Once we got here, we figured out that the game wasn't going to happen tonight. And I felt really bad about Mikel driving so much, I just told Ash to go out and have a good time with Mikel.
So I was almost home, and I just didn't turn at Parker Road. I didn't want to come home. So I went and drove around for a long time, and I listened to the radio REALLY loud and then I went to Westwood park, because I wanted to swing. But there were a lot of little kids, so I came home, and got my cd player, and went to go walk.
It felt SOOO nice to walk. It had been almost a week since I had gone, and I just walked..
I was going REALLY fast. I think it was because I was SOOO pissed off. On my way down the big hill before Eckerd, I saw Ashley Sumner and this guy. I couldn't tell who the fella was, because it was so dark.
So I just kept walking. I was making REALLY good time. I got down to Specialty Gifts (where I usually cross the street and make my way back up..WINDOWSHOPPING) and right when I got to the fire hydrant I heard, though my BLASTING loud music, "LOLA!" and I was like "HOLY SHIT!!!" and I turned away, and it was Colt and Ashley. It was COLT who had been running with Ashley.
So we kinda just stood there and talked for a while. It was SOOO cool, because I can honestly say that I have NEVER had a conversation with Ashley Sumner. But tonight, we were just standing there talking about what we were doing this summer and what our plans were and stuff. I was like DANG Ashley is a real swell gal. I mean, I had always known she was nice, but just the little 10-15 minute conversation we had, it was just nice. We discussed our fear of walking at night. And even Colt was like "Man..walking when it gets dark is kinda scary..I don't trust anyone..Even if I was diesel I would still be paranoid" LOL
So after a few minutes, Colt was ready to go, and I was ready to get back to walking. So we said byees, and we were on our ways.
I got to walking again, pounding the pavement (pretending it was a certain person) and I figured out that If I wouldn't have stopped to talk to Ash and Colt (which I didn't mind) I walked my almost 3 miles in around 40 minutes! DAMN I was PUMPED about that. I should be pissed more often!
So after I walked, I was tired (since I had been up since friggin' 8 AM) so I get home and Corey's using my pooter to burn a CD. It was ok this time, I was too tired to argue. BUT Adam started talking to me...the LAST person I wanted to hear from.
So I told Corey to tell him that I wasn't home, and I'd be back in a few minutes.
BUT before he said that he said "Hey" and after a few more minutes he goes "So I guess your not talkin' tonight" and I was like "WTF? WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?"
But I didn't say anything, Corey left and I started talking to him.
He acted like he was mad, because I hadn't been here when he wanted to talk to me.
um...NO! You don't have that kind of control over me DAMMIT. I was seeing friggin' RED.
So I was ALREADY mad at him (for not you know.. TELLING me that he wasn't going to have a game tonight)..
Now I can understand why this would seem a little "I'm BITCHY" right now..but let me give you some history.
I've been talking to this Cat for almost 4 years, on the internet. And tonight, Ash and I were going up to him after his game and introduce ourselves and stuff. BUT he didn't have a game. That just pissed me off to NO LIMITS. At first I was really sad, like I was driving around balling..but then I got angry.
I mean, even though he didn't know for sure that I was coming to the game tonight, I had kinda told him that I was planning on going. So it made me mad that I, along with Mikel and Ash had to drive to all these places tonight.
So when I try to do something nice for HIM...it goes wrong. Now I can see where you would still be like "CALM DOWN BITCH"..but it's hard to explain...dammit
I was just like..yeah..let ME do something NICE for you..YET AGAIN. I mean...I'm ALWAYS there to help him out and talk to him..and he acts like it doesn't matter? HELL NO
So then I decided. WTF? It's not MY PLACE to do this anymore. If I like him..so be it. I've liked guys and gotten over it before. That's all I have to do. If he likes me..well..he can ACT like it. If he wants me to go to one of his games, FINE, he can INVITE me to go. Otherwise, I see no point in me like doing everything to get his attention.
So after that, I was STILL seing red, and he had said that he was going off somewhere, and I was just like.. ok BYEE. I didn't say "Ohh have fun, talk to you later" I was just like GET AWAY!!!
So he was off, and I was like.."I'm hungry". Now for the past few weeks, I've been trying to only eat once or twice a day. And for the most part I've been eating healty stuff (well..not Monday and Today..) but I havn't gone and stuffed my face with fast food everynight as my one meal. I've been walking. Because walking makes me feel good about myself, not for anyone else.
So I walked myself into the kitchen, and started some Mac and Cheese. I fixed an entire box, then when it was done and all mixed, I poured the entire pot into a big soup bowl, brought it back to my room, and ate the ENTIRE thing. It felt SOO good! Holy Crap..It was SOOO good. And I ate it because I WANTED TO. I didn't care about how many times I had eaten today and I didn't care about the carbs or anything.
I decided, that from now on, I have no one to answer to. I'm not changing who I am, just so someone will like me. Take me the way I am, or just don't deal with me.
I'll keep walking, because I like it. But I'm not starving myself anymore. I'm not going to do what everyone wants me to..
So there are two shoutouts tonight..
Ash Gil...TONIGHT WAS GREAT!! YOU HAVE THE BEST BOYFRIEND IN THE KNOWN UNIVERSE... I'M SOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!! LOVE YOU BUNCHES!!!!
To a certain someone else.. a big FUCK YOU...
Thank you and goodnight... 'til next post
So this morning, I went to bed around 5:30 AM. That wasn't so bad, I mean I watched some quality movies (Edward Sissor hands and In the Army Now). So I finally fell asleep to the news this morning.
I was awoken by my dad.
At first he was kinda wispering "Courtney.....courtney..." then he goes "COURTNEY!" and I was like "WTF? WTF??? WTF ARE YOU DOING??" and I realized it was dad.
I was suprised because usually I hear people messing with my lock on my door, and I'm like ready for them to walk in. But this time he caught me off guard.
He had come in to tell me that he was leaving me $20 and the gas card. And then I was like "OOOO thanks Daddy!!!" and he asked if I was still going to the game and I said yeah and that I was going with Ash and Mikel.
THEN dad goes "Well..I'm gonna go get some breakfast, you want something? It's only 8 AM" and I was like "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM? I WENT TO BED THREE HOURS AGO...LET ME SLEEP DAMMIT"
Well..that did it, I was awake.
I attemped to go back to sleep, but I couldn't so I was up...
Since I was up I was like... OK lets do something PRODUCTIVE today and not just sit on my ass all day until the game tonight..
So I took a shower, and dad came home and wanted me to go with him to get something for his new truck (OOOO BTW: dad got a new car..so I got the Maxima..NO MORE GHETTO WAGON!!) and so we went to do that.
On the way back home, he went to this little back road, and we switched places. I was like freaking out, because this thing was like HUGE and I didn't know how to drive it. It didn't help that DAD was in the car..because he kept yelling out stuff like "SLOW DOWN!!"...and I was like..I HAVE my damn license...CHILL OUT DUDE.
So we were going around this one corner and he goes "WOULD YOU SLOW THE (ALMOST SAID THE "F" WORD) DOWN?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!" and I was like HOLY CRAP chill dude.
So we got home IN ONE PIECE and I got out and said "The NEXT time I drive your car YOU WON'T be in it!!!!"
So after that, I kinda hung out around the house. I vacumed, and I semi dusted around and talked to Ash on the internet.
Finally, when Ashley had gone to take a shower and get ready, I decided to take another shower.
So I did. It was good. I DEEP conditioned my hair for almost 20 minutes... I was like the girl in the Herbal Essence comercial...only I didn't yell...I was just happy my hair was all nice and smooth and shiney!
So I got out, and I got to relax and get dressed. I put smelly good lotion on like every inch of my body (OOO LALA!) and then I dried my hair, and straigted my hair and put my make up on (I felt like a girl for the first time in like a week). I was SOOO pumped. Ash, Mikel and I have been trying to go to a Surry Pride game for like EVER and tonight we were meeting at ARRRRRRRRRRRBY'S then we were going to ES to watch the game.
So I go to Ashley's house, and I gave her the CD that I burned (ALL JOHN MAYER!!!! WITH AN AWESOME COVER!!!!) and we listend to that on the way to eat and meet Mikel!!
We got to Arby's and we sat and were waiting for Mikel.. We laughed for like 30 mins without stopping..it was CRAZY. Half the time we weren't even talking, we would just like look at eachother and bust out laughing. It was GUUUUUEEEEEEERRRRREEEEEEAAAATTTT time!!!
THEN Mikel got there..after scaring the SHIT out of me, we all just sat there for like 10 minutes laughing..Then we ordered some food, and then we laughed some more...then we ate a little (the pattern continues).
Then a lot of out friends from school came (Lauren Wood, Cat, RANDY) and we chatted for a while. Then we were OFF!
We got on 52 together. But I was feelin' semi-nervous, so I was like flooring it on the way down. I felt kinda bad, because Mikel and Ashley were behind me and I kinda left them..but they needed thier privacy (or so I tell myself). So we get to East Surry's ball field..and it was EMPTY...I was like WTF? So Ash went and asked some people that were playing tennis what was going on..no info. So I said "Well...there's a timy chance that they're back at MA.." and I thought that Mikel was getting a little annoyed and he was just like "Well..why don't we GO BACK and see" and I was like..."umm..ok"
So we headed back to MA. Once we got here, we figured out that the game wasn't going to happen tonight. And I felt really bad about Mikel driving so much, I just told Ash to go out and have a good time with Mikel.
So I was almost home, and I just didn't turn at Parker Road. I didn't want to come home. So I went and drove around for a long time, and I listened to the radio REALLY loud and then I went to Westwood park, because I wanted to swing. But there were a lot of little kids, so I came home, and got my cd player, and went to go walk.
It felt SOOO nice to walk. It had been almost a week since I had gone, and I just walked..
I was going REALLY fast. I think it was because I was SOOO pissed off. On my way down the big hill before Eckerd, I saw Ashley Sumner and this guy. I couldn't tell who the fella was, because it was so dark.
So I just kept walking. I was making REALLY good time. I got down to Specialty Gifts (where I usually cross the street and make my way back up..WINDOWSHOPPING) and right when I got to the fire hydrant I heard, though my BLASTING loud music, "LOLA!" and I was like "HOLY SHIT!!!" and I turned away, and it was Colt and Ashley. It was COLT who had been running with Ashley.
So we kinda just stood there and talked for a while. It was SOOO cool, because I can honestly say that I have NEVER had a conversation with Ashley Sumner. But tonight, we were just standing there talking about what we were doing this summer and what our plans were and stuff. I was like DANG Ashley is a real swell gal. I mean, I had always known she was nice, but just the little 10-15 minute conversation we had, it was just nice. We discussed our fear of walking at night. And even Colt was like "Man..walking when it gets dark is kinda scary..I don't trust anyone..Even if I was diesel I would still be paranoid" LOL
So after a few minutes, Colt was ready to go, and I was ready to get back to walking. So we said byees, and we were on our ways.
I got to walking again, pounding the pavement (pretending it was a certain person) and I figured out that If I wouldn't have stopped to talk to Ash and Colt (which I didn't mind) I walked my almost 3 miles in around 40 minutes! DAMN I was PUMPED about that. I should be pissed more often!
So after I walked, I was tired (since I had been up since friggin' 8 AM) so I get home and Corey's using my pooter to burn a CD. It was ok this time, I was too tired to argue. BUT Adam started talking to me...the LAST person I wanted to hear from.
So I told Corey to tell him that I wasn't home, and I'd be back in a few minutes.
BUT before he said that he said "Hey" and after a few more minutes he goes "So I guess your not talkin' tonight" and I was like "WTF? WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?"
But I didn't say anything, Corey left and I started talking to him.
He acted like he was mad, because I hadn't been here when he wanted to talk to me.
um...NO! You don't have that kind of control over me DAMMIT. I was seeing friggin' RED.
So I was ALREADY mad at him (for not you know.. TELLING me that he wasn't going to have a game tonight)..
Now I can understand why this would seem a little "I'm BITCHY" right now..but let me give you some history.
I've been talking to this Cat for almost 4 years, on the internet. And tonight, Ash and I were going up to him after his game and introduce ourselves and stuff. BUT he didn't have a game. That just pissed me off to NO LIMITS. At first I was really sad, like I was driving around balling..but then I got angry.
I mean, even though he didn't know for sure that I was coming to the game tonight, I had kinda told him that I was planning on going. So it made me mad that I, along with Mikel and Ash had to drive to all these places tonight.
So when I try to do something nice for HIM...it goes wrong. Now I can see where you would still be like "CALM DOWN BITCH"..but it's hard to explain...dammit
I was just like..yeah..let ME do something NICE for you..YET AGAIN. I mean...I'm ALWAYS there to help him out and talk to him..and he acts like it doesn't matter? HELL NO
So then I decided. WTF? It's not MY PLACE to do this anymore. If I like him..so be it. I've liked guys and gotten over it before. That's all I have to do. If he likes me..well..he can ACT like it. If he wants me to go to one of his games, FINE, he can INVITE me to go. Otherwise, I see no point in me like doing everything to get his attention.
So after that, I was STILL seing red, and he had said that he was going off somewhere, and I was just like.. ok BYEE. I didn't say "Ohh have fun, talk to you later" I was just like GET AWAY!!!
So he was off, and I was like.."I'm hungry". Now for the past few weeks, I've been trying to only eat once or twice a day. And for the most part I've been eating healty stuff (well..not Monday and Today..) but I havn't gone and stuffed my face with fast food everynight as my one meal. I've been walking. Because walking makes me feel good about myself, not for anyone else.
So I walked myself into the kitchen, and started some Mac and Cheese. I fixed an entire box, then when it was done and all mixed, I poured the entire pot into a big soup bowl, brought it back to my room, and ate the ENTIRE thing. It felt SOO good! Holy Crap..It was SOOO good. And I ate it because I WANTED TO. I didn't care about how many times I had eaten today and I didn't care about the carbs or anything.
I decided, that from now on, I have no one to answer to. I'm not changing who I am, just so someone will like me. Take me the way I am, or just don't deal with me.
I'll keep walking, because I like it. But I'm not starving myself anymore. I'm not going to do what everyone wants me to..
So there are two shoutouts tonight..
Ash Gil...TONIGHT WAS GREAT!! YOU HAVE THE BEST BOYFRIEND IN THE KNOWN UNIVERSE... I'M SOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!! LOVE YOU BUNCHES!!!!
To a certain someone else.. a big FUCK YOU...
Thank you and goodnight... 'til next post
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Here comes the sun..doot in doo doo
Maybe it's like this because it's supposed to be like this. Maybe I'm "alone" because that's exactly the way it's supposed to be right now.
I have my friends, I have my semi-normal life. I'm doin' fine.
MAYBE since this year, I'm planning on being busy all the time, I won't even notice.
For instance, tomorrow I'm supposed to go to a baseball game with Ashley and Mikel...that should be fun! I mean, Ash and I always have a BLAST together, and I'm SOOO excited about seeing Mikel again! It's been too long since grade school...and he's ONLY gotten funnier!!
That's the way it's gonna go. I won't even notice, I won't even care.
It won't even be a "brain wash" it'll be a makeover...
Erin Mckeown - Slung-Lo
I was slung-lo and
So gung-ho
For anything to get me to start
I had my rock
I had my roll
But I couldn't find my spark
A flip of the hi-fi
A glimpse of the good life
And the clouds began to fade
I'm turning this B-side
Around to a de-light
Blue skies are here to stay
'She was so down, look at her now
She's never been so high!
Everyone knows, give it some time
The clouds'll clear the sky!'
Light the radio
Til it explodes
I'm dancin' til I drop
One small step
First right then left
I'm never gonna stop
'She was so down, look at her now
She's dancin' til she drops!
Everyone knows, give it some time
You'll find what you have lost!'
It is my style to take awhile
To put the feeling down to page
I get around to making sound
When the fancy meets the phrase!
'She was so down, look at her now
She's never been so high!
Everyone knows, give it some time
The clouds'll clear the sky!'
I'm gonna burst
Right out of this world
And I won't do it alone
A kick to the heart
A lift for the charts
One listen and we'll be gone
And then who cares?
We're debonair
And we're dancin' our way back home
'She was so down, look at her now
She's never been so high!
Everyone knows, give it some time
The clouds'll clear the sky!'
I have my friends, I have my semi-normal life. I'm doin' fine.
MAYBE since this year, I'm planning on being busy all the time, I won't even notice.
For instance, tomorrow I'm supposed to go to a baseball game with Ashley and Mikel...that should be fun! I mean, Ash and I always have a BLAST together, and I'm SOOO excited about seeing Mikel again! It's been too long since grade school...and he's ONLY gotten funnier!!
That's the way it's gonna go. I won't even notice, I won't even care.
It won't even be a "brain wash" it'll be a makeover...
Erin Mckeown - Slung-Lo
I was slung-lo and
So gung-ho
For anything to get me to start
I had my rock
I had my roll
But I couldn't find my spark
A flip of the hi-fi
A glimpse of the good life
And the clouds began to fade
I'm turning this B-side
Around to a de-light
Blue skies are here to stay
'She was so down, look at her now
She's never been so high!
Everyone knows, give it some time
The clouds'll clear the sky!'
Light the radio
Til it explodes
I'm dancin' til I drop
One small step
First right then left
I'm never gonna stop
'She was so down, look at her now
She's dancin' til she drops!
Everyone knows, give it some time
You'll find what you have lost!'
It is my style to take awhile
To put the feeling down to page
I get around to making sound
When the fancy meets the phrase!
'She was so down, look at her now
She's never been so high!
Everyone knows, give it some time
The clouds'll clear the sky!'
I'm gonna burst
Right out of this world
And I won't do it alone
A kick to the heart
A lift for the charts
One listen and we'll be gone
And then who cares?
We're debonair
And we're dancin' our way back home
'She was so down, look at her now
She's never been so high!
Everyone knows, give it some time
The clouds'll clear the sky!'
Sunday, June 20, 2004
The anatomy of the mindfuck..
Just now, while reading "mindfuck" in an article online, I thought of the title of this blog. Originaly I wasn't going to post today. It wasn't a very eventful day, but now, since I have a KICK ASS title, I figured I would. I know that I'll never be able to remember it, anyway.
As I said, today was quite uneventful. I got up early this morning. **Note early means before 2 pm**
No, actually I got up at like 10:45 this morning. I was proud of myself!
But I got up, and washed my face, brushed my teeth, and got my pool stuff together. Then Amber came up stairs and scared the HOLY MOTHER FUCKING BEJESUS out of me (I scare EASILY).
But then we went to the pool to meet my parents, Mary, Jenny, and "Master".
Mary is Mary Watson, she's married to Connie Watson (our local sheriff of "Mayberry"), and Jenny is Mary's daughter. "Master" is Jenny's boyfriend. We call him "Master" because he looks just like Dick Sergent on Bewhiched. I actually paused for a minute and attempted to think of "Master's" real name...I'm thinking Randy? But I could be wrong.
Anyhoo, I had fun at the pool today. I was AMAZED because this was THE first time I had been to the pool when there were actually people there in almost three years. GUESS WHAT? I had forgotten that I'm 16 now... I CAN SWIM AT BREAK!!
It has always been a long-standing rule at the Elk's Lodge pool, that to swim during the 15 minute break every hour, you have to be 16. OMGsh I was like FUCK TO THE YEAH when I asked my brother (who is a life guard at the pool) if I could swim at break. I had thought that he would say yes because I was his little sister, and he goes "Yeah, your 16" I was like OHH YEAH!
Now lets start back in on the story. I got there and Amber and I took our bags in and put our towels on our chairs and stuff, and I look up while stratigically taking off my shorts, and see Trey Johnson holding up a cup and like...looking at me. I was like WTF? Then I saw what he was doing. They were having a wedding reception at the pool tonight, and Trey was putting up the tent at shit. So not only does Trey have the satisfaction of seeing me sweat my ass off when I'm walking on the track, and he's at football..but now he has seen me in a bathing suit. I just kept the reassuring fact that he was a junior this year..and I'm a SENIOR...take THAT!
Later, Kayla Tate and one of her little slut friends, Alex Ledford, and Payten Mason showed up. Great. I just kinda ignored them.
After we left the pool, I came home and discovered a HORRIBLE pain in my ear. All day long I had attempted to keep water out of my ear, and now it's STILL throbing with a horrible shooting pain..and I can't hear SHIT.
Even after three rounds of SWIMERS EAR, there is still SOMETHING in there 'causing a wrenching pain in my left ear, and essentially, left part of my brain (WHICH conrolls the RIGHT side of my body thanks, Bodnar!)
Now I'm sitting here with my cd player loaded with Dashboard Confessional and ear phones on. But only on my right ear..because my left ear hates me..what else is new?
I wouldn't have my cd player on, because I'm sure your like..."HEY DUMASS you have a computer, put the cd in the computer.." BUT lemme tell ya, my computer hates me, too. Because my Windows Media Player REFUSES to open up. DARN IT. I REALLY wanted to burn a new cd..but NOOOO it officially hates me. Although, I feel that this particular hatred for me doesn't come entirely from my computer, but partialy from my brother who "fixed my computer" a few days ago, and it hasn't worked properly since...hum...
But anyway, I was home, and I had drops in my ear, and I couldn't really move so what else was there to do? SLEEP! I took a small nap, then returned to talkin' to my peeps on various IMs.
I was PUMPED when Emma skipped a I'm sure "Lame" dance to get on the net at GSW! The only "interation" between us has been blogging (well I've been reading HERS but....). We didn't talk too long, just hellos and hows it goin's and quick I love the 90s talk..then she had to go...
After I had put yet another 4-5 drops in my ear, I got up to my computer.
I figured I would check out Brad's blog, because it's been a few days. Now, I don't remember EVERYONES blog address, so I opened a new internet page, and went to "Favorites"..my computer really DOES hate me, because SOMEHOW all of the pages that I have bookmarked are GONE. That's a pain in the effing arse. So I had to go through my history, to get the address. Then as I was searching thtough the 5 million pages I've visited in the past three days, I saw c o l l e g e h u m o r . c o m..well I HAD to see what bored kids stuck in summer session were up to, so instead of reading Brad's blog, I've been exploring the grand columnists that c o l l e g e h u m o r . c o m employes.
I read all of Matt Boor's articles the other night, and I figured I could read some other peoples articles.
I started my search with Aaron Karo "RUMINATIONS". He looked like a bit of an ass from his picture, but his articles exsuded "I'm a rich, smart, asshole frat guy"...hum...NO
Next I was on to "Suit Confessions" by Meg Connolly.
I was thinking that since she was the only girl writer, she might be good...little did I know...
My final choice (third one down the list) was Court Sullivan's "Points in Case".
**DING DING DING** we have a winner. This guy is Matt Boor..only he's kinda funnier, and less "Holden Appler"-y..if that makes sense. He lives in Alabama and goes to Emory...and he's kinda cute, too.
He actually describes college the way we all expect it to be, but never hear about. The constant fight with the alarm clock, the never ending research papers, and the great parties.
"-Well, a little while ago it was Parent’s Weekend here at Emory. What a contradictory scene: half the kids are ridiculously sober because they’re out with their parents, and the other half are ridiculously drunk because it’s so boring having half the campus sober. I guess it’s just nature’s way of preserving a healthy campus alcoholic equilibrium."
FUNNY STUFF --
But anyway...I think that Ima go put some more drops in my ear, and read some more Court...LOL...
'Til next post...
FUNNY QUOTE::: "I got my apendix taken out the day before New Years, you don't have to tell me how much it sucked. But I was laying in the hospital bed real late when the nurse came in to check on me 'So do you always work the graveyard shift', I said trying to make conversation. "Son, I work in a hospital, We don't call it the 'Graveyard Shift'"...I guess I never thought of it that way.."
As I said, today was quite uneventful. I got up early this morning. **Note early means before 2 pm**
No, actually I got up at like 10:45 this morning. I was proud of myself!
But I got up, and washed my face, brushed my teeth, and got my pool stuff together. Then Amber came up stairs and scared the HOLY MOTHER FUCKING BEJESUS out of me (I scare EASILY).
But then we went to the pool to meet my parents, Mary, Jenny, and "Master".
Mary is Mary Watson, she's married to Connie Watson (our local sheriff of "Mayberry"), and Jenny is Mary's daughter. "Master" is Jenny's boyfriend. We call him "Master" because he looks just like Dick Sergent on Bewhiched. I actually paused for a minute and attempted to think of "Master's" real name...I'm thinking Randy? But I could be wrong.
Anyhoo, I had fun at the pool today. I was AMAZED because this was THE first time I had been to the pool when there were actually people there in almost three years. GUESS WHAT? I had forgotten that I'm 16 now... I CAN SWIM AT BREAK!!
It has always been a long-standing rule at the Elk's Lodge pool, that to swim during the 15 minute break every hour, you have to be 16. OMGsh I was like FUCK TO THE YEAH when I asked my brother (who is a life guard at the pool) if I could swim at break. I had thought that he would say yes because I was his little sister, and he goes "Yeah, your 16" I was like OHH YEAH!
Now lets start back in on the story. I got there and Amber and I took our bags in and put our towels on our chairs and stuff, and I look up while stratigically taking off my shorts, and see Trey Johnson holding up a cup and like...looking at me. I was like WTF? Then I saw what he was doing. They were having a wedding reception at the pool tonight, and Trey was putting up the tent at shit. So not only does Trey have the satisfaction of seeing me sweat my ass off when I'm walking on the track, and he's at football..but now he has seen me in a bathing suit. I just kept the reassuring fact that he was a junior this year..and I'm a SENIOR...take THAT!
Later, Kayla Tate and one of her little slut friends, Alex Ledford, and Payten Mason showed up. Great. I just kinda ignored them.
After we left the pool, I came home and discovered a HORRIBLE pain in my ear. All day long I had attempted to keep water out of my ear, and now it's STILL throbing with a horrible shooting pain..and I can't hear SHIT.
Even after three rounds of SWIMERS EAR, there is still SOMETHING in there 'causing a wrenching pain in my left ear, and essentially, left part of my brain (WHICH conrolls the RIGHT side of my body thanks, Bodnar!)
Now I'm sitting here with my cd player loaded with Dashboard Confessional and ear phones on. But only on my right ear..because my left ear hates me..what else is new?
I wouldn't have my cd player on, because I'm sure your like..."HEY DUMASS you have a computer, put the cd in the computer.." BUT lemme tell ya, my computer hates me, too. Because my Windows Media Player REFUSES to open up. DARN IT. I REALLY wanted to burn a new cd..but NOOOO it officially hates me. Although, I feel that this particular hatred for me doesn't come entirely from my computer, but partialy from my brother who "fixed my computer" a few days ago, and it hasn't worked properly since...hum...
But anyway, I was home, and I had drops in my ear, and I couldn't really move so what else was there to do? SLEEP! I took a small nap, then returned to talkin' to my peeps on various IMs.
I was PUMPED when Emma skipped a I'm sure "Lame" dance to get on the net at GSW! The only "interation" between us has been blogging (well I've been reading HERS but....). We didn't talk too long, just hellos and hows it goin's and quick I love the 90s talk..then she had to go...
After I had put yet another 4-5 drops in my ear, I got up to my computer.
I figured I would check out Brad's blog, because it's been a few days. Now, I don't remember EVERYONES blog address, so I opened a new internet page, and went to "Favorites"..my computer really DOES hate me, because SOMEHOW all of the pages that I have bookmarked are GONE. That's a pain in the effing arse. So I had to go through my history, to get the address. Then as I was searching thtough the 5 million pages I've visited in the past three days, I saw c o l l e g e h u m o r . c o m..well I HAD to see what bored kids stuck in summer session were up to, so instead of reading Brad's blog, I've been exploring the grand columnists that c o l l e g e h u m o r . c o m employes.
I read all of Matt Boor's articles the other night, and I figured I could read some other peoples articles.
I started my search with Aaron Karo "RUMINATIONS". He looked like a bit of an ass from his picture, but his articles exsuded "I'm a rich, smart, asshole frat guy"...hum...NO
Next I was on to "Suit Confessions" by Meg Connolly.
I was thinking that since she was the only girl writer, she might be good...little did I know...
My final choice (third one down the list) was Court Sullivan's "Points in Case".
**DING DING DING** we have a winner. This guy is Matt Boor..only he's kinda funnier, and less "Holden Appler"-y..if that makes sense. He lives in Alabama and goes to Emory...and he's kinda cute, too.
He actually describes college the way we all expect it to be, but never hear about. The constant fight with the alarm clock, the never ending research papers, and the great parties.
"-Well, a little while ago it was Parent’s Weekend here at Emory. What a contradictory scene: half the kids are ridiculously sober because they’re out with their parents, and the other half are ridiculously drunk because it’s so boring having half the campus sober. I guess it’s just nature’s way of preserving a healthy campus alcoholic equilibrium."
FUNNY STUFF --
But anyway...I think that Ima go put some more drops in my ear, and read some more Court...LOL...
'Til next post...
FUNNY QUOTE::: "I got my apendix taken out the day before New Years, you don't have to tell me how much it sucked. But I was laying in the hospital bed real late when the nurse came in to check on me 'So do you always work the graveyard shift', I said trying to make conversation. "Son, I work in a hospital, We don't call it the 'Graveyard Shift'"...I guess I never thought of it that way.."
Thursday, June 17, 2004
Milk can make you do some BAD things...
A few minutes ago, I walked into the kitchen to get a glass of milk. Pushing aside the box of Krispy Kreme donuts, to reach the plastic cups, I thought ..."OOO you know what would go GREAT with this tall, cold, refreshing glass of milk?...GRAPES (The closest thing to the milk carton)". So I grabbed the grapes and walked back to my room...
Approimatly 2.5 seconds later, I figured out why they made "Strawberry milk" indead of "grape milk"...Strawberry milk just sounds SOOO much cooler!
Ahh...the sweet taste of a chocolate covered sprinkled donut goes wonderfuly with my glass of milk!
I'm sitting here and I just took a bite out of my donut..then I looked in the mirror. I STILL havn't taken my bathing suit off from the pool today. Humm...Ironic how three months ago I DIDN'T park on the grociery side of Wal-Mart, because I had the mental picture of this bathing suit haning on my wall..waiting to be fit into...and now I'm sitting here scarfing down this delectable junk, in this bathing suit. Which, I might add...seems to be getting snugger with every chew...wonder why?
Origanaly I felt good about eating this donut. All I had had today was a pop tart (around 4 AM) and Chicken tenders with a SALAD and a baked potato from the lodge (AFTER I had swam laps..AFTER I had walked my three miles), but now I feel bad about it...dame milk...why did you tempt me so?
Tomorrow I'm going up to Appalachain's campus. Corey needed to go for his financial aid something or another, and so did Amber... I offered to drive. YAY!
I'm real excited. I think that we're gonna go out to eat with all of thier friends from up there. I have picked out a cute outfit that is comfy as well as cute. Although, I fear that the skirt I have is going to bluge out for some reason *takes another bite of donut*..hum...
No...tomorrow I'll probably look at this outfit that is currently laying on my chair and think to myself "Wait..driving for an hour and a half, walking up those damn hills...and THEN walking tomorrow night...maybe the shorts and T-shirt could be cute, too"
Hum...desisions, desisions...
But anyway... I'm going back to reading these articles of Matt Boor's...collegehumor.com has just made me want the next year and a half go by SOOO much more quickly...I can't WAIT to do this shit!!!!
At first, I just liked this site because of the pictures of funny shit bored college students do. NOW (after reading almost all of Boor's articles) I'm not only looking forward to duct-taping my RA onto a wall..but I'm also in anticipation for being dirt poor and complaning about my smelly roomate...FUN TIMES TO THE MAX! Stale beer and staying up 'til dawn..please wait for me...wait... um....nevermind.
Reading Boor's stuff (and looking at his profile picture)has reminded me of Holden Appler. Although, this kid seems far less dorky-er. He speakes in "lamins terms" ---BTW..not sure I spelled that right...-- and I don't really have to search deep down to attempt to figure out what he's trying to convey
EMMA JANE REFVEM don't think I forgot about ya, babe! HAPPY SEVENTENTH BIRTHDAY!!!! I would have said "Sweet 17th.." but it just doens't have the same effect as last year...
I'm sorry your stuck at GSW having a ball meeting new people..and we can't go to your house and have a dinner that everyone EXCEPT for me thought was a lame idea...next year Emma... next year...
That is as clever as I can be tonight.. I'm going to go finish my donut...and attempt to fall asleep...
Goodnight lover(s) ///notice the "s" is optional...because only like one person reads this...LOL
Approimatly 2.5 seconds later, I figured out why they made "Strawberry milk" indead of "grape milk"...Strawberry milk just sounds SOOO much cooler!
Ahh...the sweet taste of a chocolate covered sprinkled donut goes wonderfuly with my glass of milk!
I'm sitting here and I just took a bite out of my donut..then I looked in the mirror. I STILL havn't taken my bathing suit off from the pool today. Humm...Ironic how three months ago I DIDN'T park on the grociery side of Wal-Mart, because I had the mental picture of this bathing suit haning on my wall..waiting to be fit into...and now I'm sitting here scarfing down this delectable junk, in this bathing suit. Which, I might add...seems to be getting snugger with every chew...wonder why?
Origanaly I felt good about eating this donut. All I had had today was a pop tart (around 4 AM) and Chicken tenders with a SALAD and a baked potato from the lodge (AFTER I had swam laps..AFTER I had walked my three miles), but now I feel bad about it...dame milk...why did you tempt me so?
Tomorrow I'm going up to Appalachain's campus. Corey needed to go for his financial aid something or another, and so did Amber... I offered to drive. YAY!
I'm real excited. I think that we're gonna go out to eat with all of thier friends from up there. I have picked out a cute outfit that is comfy as well as cute. Although, I fear that the skirt I have is going to bluge out for some reason *takes another bite of donut*..hum...
No...tomorrow I'll probably look at this outfit that is currently laying on my chair and think to myself "Wait..driving for an hour and a half, walking up those damn hills...and THEN walking tomorrow night...maybe the shorts and T-shirt could be cute, too"
Hum...desisions, desisions...
But anyway... I'm going back to reading these articles of Matt Boor's...collegehumor.com has just made me want the next year and a half go by SOOO much more quickly...I can't WAIT to do this shit!!!!
At first, I just liked this site because of the pictures of funny shit bored college students do. NOW (after reading almost all of Boor's articles) I'm not only looking forward to duct-taping my RA onto a wall..but I'm also in anticipation for being dirt poor and complaning about my smelly roomate...FUN TIMES TO THE MAX! Stale beer and staying up 'til dawn..please wait for me...wait... um....nevermind.
Reading Boor's stuff (and looking at his profile picture)has reminded me of Holden Appler. Although, this kid seems far less dorky-er. He speakes in "lamins terms" ---BTW..not sure I spelled that right...-- and I don't really have to search deep down to attempt to figure out what he's trying to convey
EMMA JANE REFVEM don't think I forgot about ya, babe! HAPPY SEVENTENTH BIRTHDAY!!!! I would have said "Sweet 17th.." but it just doens't have the same effect as last year...
I'm sorry your stuck at GSW having a ball meeting new people..and we can't go to your house and have a dinner that everyone EXCEPT for me thought was a lame idea...next year Emma... next year...
That is as clever as I can be tonight.. I'm going to go finish my donut...and attempt to fall asleep...
Goodnight lover(s) ///notice the "s" is optional...because only like one person reads this...LOL
Monday, June 14, 2004
GRAND DAY!!
HOW GREAT WAS TODAY?
First, I didn't go to sleep. Well..not really. Ash said that she was going to bed around 3:30 this morning...and I stayed up. I was going to sleep, and everything, but I couldn't. I was TOO excited about today!
I came upstairs from downstairs (obviously) and I looked on the internet at funny pictures... it REALLY makes you wanna go to college...WFU boys...WTF? HOW MUCH Duct Tape did you USE?
ANYWAY I remember looking at my computer clock, and it was 9:03 AM. I knew that Ash was going to get up around 10 AM and IM me to see what we were doing today...So I kinda just layed in my bed, and listend to the TV, but never really went to sleep.
At like 10:53 Ash started IMing me on Yahoo! I was like YES!!! SOMETHING TO DO TODAY!!!
So we had a game plan. I was going to take a quick shower, and go to Ash's house at noon, and we were going to come back to my house and watch MOVIES ALL DAY LONG!
We started off with Silence of the Lambs....WHOA...that's all I've got to day about that..
Second, we watched Empire Records..YAY!! Ashley finally got to see it!! DAMN THE MAN --SAVE THE EMPIRE!!!
Third, we watched Out Cold...I think it might have been the funniest movie of the day. ONLY the dvd messed up and we didn't see all of the end... but nothing really happens anyway.
We were going to watch the "O-Face" part of Office Space..but the video messed up.
So I took Ash back to her house. I got to see the PUPPYS!!! They're SOOOO cute and SOOOOOO soft. I was like.. OMGsh...your TOO cute, and you too..and YOU and YOU and OMGsh you TOO!! (there are five of them..)
So while Ash and I were petting the puppys, the Germ comes back from the beach...that's all I'm gonna say about that... I don't want to go there right now.
So after I left Ash's house, I came home, and changed my shirt and went to MAHS to walk on the track! I've gotta get my three miles in!
I got there and went the way by the gym. The fellas were having an open gym, there were people on the tennis courts, and the football players were lifting and stuff.
At first I didn't see any of the football players. They were out behind the tennis courts.
THEN all of a sudden, I looked up from doing something on my MP3 player, and there was Ronnie, Trey Johnson (errrrrrr), Coach Price and some guy in a orange baseball hat. I just acted like I was fiddling with my MP3 player. I was thinking to myself "HOLY SHYTE...WHERE DID THEY COME FROM?" I mean, I didn't hear a truck go past me or anything.
Anyway, I was almost halfway around the track from them, when I looked up and saw the guys walking into the field house. I was happy!
I had a few more encounters with the football players. Price kills me. He NEVER makes the guys run. Like today. He had them in this big van, and everytime they had to go back to the tennis courts, they would all pile into the van and come WIZZING by me walking. I was like.. I've seen them in the field house "lifting" they sit around and talk. And your not even gonna make them walk to the field and back? It's not THAT far. I guess we're gonna be a crappy team this year...
ANYWAY I walked my three miles (I think I went over a lap or two again). BUT It was all good.
I came home, ate a good dinner, vented to Ash a bit..got mad at Adam..vented to Ash a little more...and now I've got to go figure out WTF I'm supposed to wear for Senior Pictures tomorrow...ugh.
First, I didn't go to sleep. Well..not really. Ash said that she was going to bed around 3:30 this morning...and I stayed up. I was going to sleep, and everything, but I couldn't. I was TOO excited about today!
I came upstairs from downstairs (obviously) and I looked on the internet at funny pictures... it REALLY makes you wanna go to college...WFU boys...WTF? HOW MUCH Duct Tape did you USE?
ANYWAY I remember looking at my computer clock, and it was 9:03 AM. I knew that Ash was going to get up around 10 AM and IM me to see what we were doing today...So I kinda just layed in my bed, and listend to the TV, but never really went to sleep.
At like 10:53 Ash started IMing me on Yahoo! I was like YES!!! SOMETHING TO DO TODAY!!!
So we had a game plan. I was going to take a quick shower, and go to Ash's house at noon, and we were going to come back to my house and watch MOVIES ALL DAY LONG!
We started off with Silence of the Lambs....WHOA...that's all I've got to day about that..
Second, we watched Empire Records..YAY!! Ashley finally got to see it!! DAMN THE MAN --SAVE THE EMPIRE!!!
Third, we watched Out Cold...I think it might have been the funniest movie of the day. ONLY the dvd messed up and we didn't see all of the end... but nothing really happens anyway.
We were going to watch the "O-Face" part of Office Space..but the video messed up.
So I took Ash back to her house. I got to see the PUPPYS!!! They're SOOOO cute and SOOOOOO soft. I was like.. OMGsh...your TOO cute, and you too..and YOU and YOU and OMGsh you TOO!! (there are five of them..)
So while Ash and I were petting the puppys, the Germ comes back from the beach...that's all I'm gonna say about that... I don't want to go there right now.
So after I left Ash's house, I came home, and changed my shirt and went to MAHS to walk on the track! I've gotta get my three miles in!
I got there and went the way by the gym. The fellas were having an open gym, there were people on the tennis courts, and the football players were lifting and stuff.
At first I didn't see any of the football players. They were out behind the tennis courts.
THEN all of a sudden, I looked up from doing something on my MP3 player, and there was Ronnie, Trey Johnson (errrrrrr), Coach Price and some guy in a orange baseball hat. I just acted like I was fiddling with my MP3 player. I was thinking to myself "HOLY SHYTE...WHERE DID THEY COME FROM?" I mean, I didn't hear a truck go past me or anything.
Anyway, I was almost halfway around the track from them, when I looked up and saw the guys walking into the field house. I was happy!
I had a few more encounters with the football players. Price kills me. He NEVER makes the guys run. Like today. He had them in this big van, and everytime they had to go back to the tennis courts, they would all pile into the van and come WIZZING by me walking. I was like.. I've seen them in the field house "lifting" they sit around and talk. And your not even gonna make them walk to the field and back? It's not THAT far. I guess we're gonna be a crappy team this year...
ANYWAY I walked my three miles (I think I went over a lap or two again). BUT It was all good.
I came home, ate a good dinner, vented to Ash a bit..got mad at Adam..vented to Ash a little more...and now I've got to go figure out WTF I'm supposed to wear for Senior Pictures tomorrow...ugh.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
Workin' some stuff out...
I was going to re-type last nights post that was messed up. But I'm too lazy. So this is todays events.
I went to bed when the sun came up, again. I did it yesterday, too. I don't know why. I was watching Hannibal on TV, then I was flipping channels and I found the National Spelling Bee championship. I don't know why, but I was intrigued by this. I started watching around round 3 or 4, and there ended up 15 rounds. I had my favorite going good. THEN he missed ONE letter. He said E instead of I...darn it. So the little skinny kid with big ears won...darn it.
So after that, I drifted off to sleep. Good times. I woke up today to the sound of the telephone ringing, the doorbell ringing, and someone throwing stones at my window. It was my mom. She and Amber had gone to church, and Amber drove. I guess it didn't occur to her to TAKE SOME KEYS or to simply leave the door unlocked. Anyway, it got me up. I tired to fall asleep again, but I couldn't.
Since I was up, I ate a little something, and thought that I might go play tennis. I had just gotten out of the shower, and Ashley called to say that she couldn't make it to the ball game tonight. It was all good though, it was such a crappy day, I didn't really feel like sitting on the ground and watching baseball.
So I was out of the shower, and I got dressed in some sweats, and went to MAHS to play tennis. There were four guys on my court (the one with the board to volly with) so I decided I would go walk, instead. I didn't want to walk with no entertainment, so I came home and got my MP3 player. On my way back to the school, I got in the middle of a funeral. OMGsh whoever died had a LOT of friends. I sat at the neighbors gas station for almost 15 minutes. WOW! Then someone behind me started honking at me to go when I couldn't, because there was traffic coming in BOTH DIRECTIONS. I was temped to give them the finger. But it was Sunday, so I took pity.
When I FINNALY got to the high school, I parked my car, and got my chapstick, and went awalkin'. I had my rain coat with me because I didn't have any pockets, so I put that on. Set my MP3 player to continious play, and walked. I ment to walk 3 miles. Well...I payed attention to the first one, then after that I kinda lost track. I know that I had to atleast walk 12 laps, but I'm thinking I might have done 13 or 14. But it really doesn't matter.
While I was walking, I was looking up at the school. I was looking at the whole thing, right there infront of me. I have been in every single room in that school. I've been in every closet, and I'm sure every bathroom stall.
While I was walking, I also thought about this next year. I thought about how I want my senior year to be. I want it to be fun. I want to have the most fun in the next year, than I have had in all my years. I want to hang out with my friends as much as possible. I want to learn how to let the little things they do, go. I want to stop coming home after school and sleeping. I want to go walk everyday after school. I want so many things.
I was thinking, the past three years have gone by so quickly. I want this year to go by slower. I want to fully enjoy my remaining year at good 'ole MAHS.
I was also thinking about all the stuff that has happend in the past three years. Making new friends, keeping old friends, and patching up old friendships. So much of life happens in high school. I had never realized that. I had never realized that in high school, people learn how to socalize. People learn SOOO much about themselves, and the people around them. People learn how to change, and they learn how to be the people that they want to be.
I thought about the next three years of my life. I thought about what I'll be doing in five years. It's SOO scary. I hate thinking about it, but I did.
I thought about how much I wanted to fall in love. But I also thought about a letter that Sara had written me before school let out. It was a little thing that she found on the internet, but the words still lingered in my mind. "We forgot that you can't control falling in love.......and that you can't make yourself fall in love....I learned that I can love." I also thought about how much I don't really NEED a boyfriend. As much as I think that I want one..maybe I don't have one for a reason (guys are assholes). Maybe this next year will be grand. I love my friends, and I know that they will always be there for me. I don't need a "boy" to be happy...I can cuddle with my gals...
I thought about how much I'm scared to end this "era".
The next year of my life, is the last of the norm. I will be moving on. In a year from now, I will have graduated high school (*crosses fingers*). I will be getting ready for college. I'll be getting ready to leave.
As much as I do want to leave. It's scary. It's like I've always wanted to get out of here, and when the time comes, I'm not sure I'll really be ready to let it go.
I thought about how I'm supposed to know what I want to do. I know what I want to do. I want to take a gap-year, and not go straight to college. I want to go to Europe and travel, and see the world. Only I know that the rents would NEVER let me do this, and even if they did, it would only screw me over more. If I took a year off, I'd be WAY behind in my classes. I mean my math skills are NOT good, and if I take a year off, it will only make it harder on myself to understand (or halfway understand) my college math courses.
So when I finally thought about how many laps I had done, I looked at my watch. It was 6. I figured I should get home. On my way to my car, I was peeling my rain coat off of me. Doing all this thinking had completely distracted me from how much I was sweating...Well...I guess that's good.
What made me mad about today was the fact that I went to exercise to get my mind OFF of everything that was going on. Instead, I thought about it for an hour and a half.
I like to go walking and not think of anything except how much my feet hurt, or how my thighs are burning. Only today, it was completely bass-ackwards.
OK I'm going to go now. I know that I have bored you...ta ta for now!
I went to bed when the sun came up, again. I did it yesterday, too. I don't know why. I was watching Hannibal on TV, then I was flipping channels and I found the National Spelling Bee championship. I don't know why, but I was intrigued by this. I started watching around round 3 or 4, and there ended up 15 rounds. I had my favorite going good. THEN he missed ONE letter. He said E instead of I...darn it. So the little skinny kid with big ears won...darn it.
So after that, I drifted off to sleep. Good times. I woke up today to the sound of the telephone ringing, the doorbell ringing, and someone throwing stones at my window. It was my mom. She and Amber had gone to church, and Amber drove. I guess it didn't occur to her to TAKE SOME KEYS or to simply leave the door unlocked. Anyway, it got me up. I tired to fall asleep again, but I couldn't.
Since I was up, I ate a little something, and thought that I might go play tennis. I had just gotten out of the shower, and Ashley called to say that she couldn't make it to the ball game tonight. It was all good though, it was such a crappy day, I didn't really feel like sitting on the ground and watching baseball.
So I was out of the shower, and I got dressed in some sweats, and went to MAHS to play tennis. There were four guys on my court (the one with the board to volly with) so I decided I would go walk, instead. I didn't want to walk with no entertainment, so I came home and got my MP3 player. On my way back to the school, I got in the middle of a funeral. OMGsh whoever died had a LOT of friends. I sat at the neighbors gas station for almost 15 minutes. WOW! Then someone behind me started honking at me to go when I couldn't, because there was traffic coming in BOTH DIRECTIONS. I was temped to give them the finger. But it was Sunday, so I took pity.
When I FINNALY got to the high school, I parked my car, and got my chapstick, and went awalkin'. I had my rain coat with me because I didn't have any pockets, so I put that on. Set my MP3 player to continious play, and walked. I ment to walk 3 miles. Well...I payed attention to the first one, then after that I kinda lost track. I know that I had to atleast walk 12 laps, but I'm thinking I might have done 13 or 14. But it really doesn't matter.
While I was walking, I was looking up at the school. I was looking at the whole thing, right there infront of me. I have been in every single room in that school. I've been in every closet, and I'm sure every bathroom stall.
While I was walking, I also thought about this next year. I thought about how I want my senior year to be. I want it to be fun. I want to have the most fun in the next year, than I have had in all my years. I want to hang out with my friends as much as possible. I want to learn how to let the little things they do, go. I want to stop coming home after school and sleeping. I want to go walk everyday after school. I want so many things.
I was thinking, the past three years have gone by so quickly. I want this year to go by slower. I want to fully enjoy my remaining year at good 'ole MAHS.
I was also thinking about all the stuff that has happend in the past three years. Making new friends, keeping old friends, and patching up old friendships. So much of life happens in high school. I had never realized that. I had never realized that in high school, people learn how to socalize. People learn SOOO much about themselves, and the people around them. People learn how to change, and they learn how to be the people that they want to be.
I thought about the next three years of my life. I thought about what I'll be doing in five years. It's SOO scary. I hate thinking about it, but I did.
I thought about how much I wanted to fall in love. But I also thought about a letter that Sara had written me before school let out. It was a little thing that she found on the internet, but the words still lingered in my mind. "We forgot that you can't control falling in love.......and that you can't make yourself fall in love....I learned that I can love." I also thought about how much I don't really NEED a boyfriend. As much as I think that I want one..maybe I don't have one for a reason (guys are assholes). Maybe this next year will be grand. I love my friends, and I know that they will always be there for me. I don't need a "boy" to be happy...I can cuddle with my gals...
I thought about how much I'm scared to end this "era".
The next year of my life, is the last of the norm. I will be moving on. In a year from now, I will have graduated high school (*crosses fingers*). I will be getting ready for college. I'll be getting ready to leave.
As much as I do want to leave. It's scary. It's like I've always wanted to get out of here, and when the time comes, I'm not sure I'll really be ready to let it go.
I thought about how I'm supposed to know what I want to do. I know what I want to do. I want to take a gap-year, and not go straight to college. I want to go to Europe and travel, and see the world. Only I know that the rents would NEVER let me do this, and even if they did, it would only screw me over more. If I took a year off, I'd be WAY behind in my classes. I mean my math skills are NOT good, and if I take a year off, it will only make it harder on myself to understand (or halfway understand) my college math courses.
So when I finally thought about how many laps I had done, I looked at my watch. It was 6. I figured I should get home. On my way to my car, I was peeling my rain coat off of me. Doing all this thinking had completely distracted me from how much I was sweating...Well...I guess that's good.
What made me mad about today was the fact that I went to exercise to get my mind OFF of everything that was going on. Instead, I thought about it for an hour and a half.
I like to go walking and not think of anything except how much my feet hurt, or how my thighs are burning. Only today, it was completely bass-ackwards.
OK I'm going to go now. I know that I have bored you...ta ta for now!
Saturday, June 12, 2004
Dame these machines...
I just wrote a long, funny blog. But my computer screwed up when I went to publish. It made me mad. It messed up my blogging skills....maybe later....
Dame these machines...DAME THEM!!!
Emma...when you read this you will probably be all settled in at GSW...HAVE FUN!! Meet lots of people...FIND A PROM DATE!!!! lol...Love you Emma!!
Dame these machines...DAME THEM!!!
Emma...when you read this you will probably be all settled in at GSW...HAVE FUN!! Meet lots of people...FIND A PROM DATE!!!! lol...Love you Emma!!
Friday, June 11, 2004
Yeah Yeah Yeah...
So I know it's been a while since I posted, and I have quite a bit to post... So buckle your seat belts, and place your trays into the upright position...
Last night we had a party at my house...whooo (notice the LACK of enthusiasm in my tone of typing..). We made PJ. "Party Juice". It was OK...it tasted like Kool-aid...not too bad. BUT then we did shots. WHEW! That was rough...Jake Pennelton started "calling dinosaurs" <>
ANYWAY I was REALLY tired of loud, obnoxious people so I came up stairs...I was like WHOA CRAP I had forgotten to tell Ash that I was running downstairs for a minute...I felt bad, but she said it was all gravy, so that's good. We chatted for a bit, but we were both tired and I think we said goodnight around 3 AM.
Now I hopped into bed, and was flipping channels. NOTHING but Wings was on. It got me thinking about the whole "Nick at nite" thing. When I was younger, "Nick at Nite" was when I could see some "old" shows. Like THE WONDER YEARS, I LOVE LUCY, or HAPPY DAYS. I'm disappointed in the "Nick at Nite" people. They show Wings...ooo a show that went off the air like..7 years ago..And they show the Cosby show. Which, is an old show, but OMGsh they play it a LOT. They also plat Cheers, a show that I don't like very much. BUT I don't understand why they don't bring the Wonder Years or Happy Days back again... two ROCKIN' AWESOME shows! OR why don't they play GOOD shows. For example..Murphy Brown. GREAT SHOW. I wanted to be a tv anchor because of that show, and I wanted to name my son Avery, because of that show...PEOPLE PLEASE come on now...STOP THE COSBY...PLEASE.
ANYWAY I got tired of flipping channels and I put it on C-SPAN.
Now a few people may think that I am a mean or rude person for saying this..but for anyone who hasn't turned on the modern convince we call a TELEVISION in the past 5 days, I must break the news that former president, Ronald Reagan has passed away. He was in his early nineties though...I mean..Whatever. BUT I can't help feeling weird when talking about stuff like this. People cry. Now I know that some people might have known him, he might have been a personal hero for some other people..But I don't understand it...Lets see folks..What did he do for our country while he was in office? O He PLUNGED our great nation into a RECESSION! *Tumbs up* COME ON People...I know it's mean but I hope that you see where I'm going with this..BUT while I was watching C-SPAN they had a camera placed somewhere in the rotunda. I was watching the guards of the casket. There were men from all of the branches of the troops. There was a Navy man, a National Guard, an Army man, an Army Ranger and a Marine. I was laying in my bed thinking about what these guys were thinking. They were just standing there, staring at this casket with an American flag draped over it. I'm sure that at one point they all thought about how bad this was. But I could just see one of them thinking "OK...Bread, mustard, paper towels...Something else..Crap, she wanted me to pick up something else from the market" and another man thinking "Hold it in, I don't have to pee...Dry dessert...Sand..Hot sun...NO WATER". I felt kinda sorry for those men. Then, a few moments later, a door opened, and in came a new set of troops. They marched slowly around the velvet ropes, and then around and took the place of their person. Only the Marine I think got confused, and went to the Navy man. The navy man was next and you kinda saw him pause then resumed marching and stood by the next Marine. They all saluted, did something with their gun, then slowly, almost in slow motion the original "standers" moved back and the fresh people slid over into their place. The other people marched out. The whole thing took about ten minutes, and then more people started flooding into the room again.
I drifted off asleep.
I woke up this morning and I fell back asleep..I did this a few times before I got up for good. I decided to eat a little something, then go and do BUNS OF STEEL. I did BOG yesterday, and I will TOTALLY NOT be doing it two days in a row again. I had to quit when it got to the real fast part, and rest, then when it was time for the floor part, I started again. I didn't have the complete satisfaction at the end when she says "Great workout, I look forward to working out with you again, tomorrow". BUT my legs and thighs were KILLIN' so I was like whatever. I came up stairs and read Emma, Brad, Jill, and Sarah's blogs. Ahhh everyone had posted..GREAT! I was looking on my AIM list and was getting ready to say "HEY" to Emma because she came back from her away status, and a screen poped up. EMMA! We chatted about I love the 90s (JULY 12!!!!) and I told her that I would tape them for her. Then we kinda talked about what was going to be on I love the 90s, and how much we were looking forwaurd to it, but also how I love the 90s could never out-do the great and almighty I LOVE THE 80s. Then Emma went to pack and I got in the shower.
That's about it. I'm going to go dry my hair and sit around some more...byees!!
Last night we had a party at my house...whooo (notice the LACK of enthusiasm in my tone of typing..). We made PJ. "Party Juice". It was OK...it tasted like Kool-aid...not too bad. BUT then we did shots. WHEW! That was rough...Jake Pennelton started "calling dinosaurs" <
ANYWAY I was REALLY tired of loud, obnoxious people so I came up stairs...I was like WHOA CRAP I had forgotten to tell Ash that I was running downstairs for a minute...I felt bad, but she said it was all gravy, so that's good. We chatted for a bit, but we were both tired and I think we said goodnight around 3 AM.
Now I hopped into bed, and was flipping channels. NOTHING but Wings was on. It got me thinking about the whole "Nick at nite" thing. When I was younger, "Nick at Nite" was when I could see some "old" shows. Like THE WONDER YEARS, I LOVE LUCY, or HAPPY DAYS. I'm disappointed in the "Nick at Nite" people. They show Wings...ooo a show that went off the air like..7 years ago..And they show the Cosby show. Which, is an old show, but OMGsh they play it a LOT. They also plat Cheers, a show that I don't like very much. BUT I don't understand why they don't bring the Wonder Years or Happy Days back again... two ROCKIN' AWESOME shows! OR why don't they play GOOD shows. For example..Murphy Brown. GREAT SHOW. I wanted to be a tv anchor because of that show, and I wanted to name my son Avery, because of that show...PEOPLE PLEASE come on now...STOP THE COSBY...PLEASE.
ANYWAY I got tired of flipping channels and I put it on C-SPAN.
Now a few people may think that I am a mean or rude person for saying this..but for anyone who hasn't turned on the modern convince we call a TELEVISION in the past 5 days, I must break the news that former president, Ronald Reagan has passed away. He was in his early nineties though...I mean..Whatever. BUT I can't help feeling weird when talking about stuff like this. People cry. Now I know that some people might have known him, he might have been a personal hero for some other people..But I don't understand it...Lets see folks..What did he do for our country while he was in office? O He PLUNGED our great nation into a RECESSION! *Tumbs up* COME ON People...I know it's mean but I hope that you see where I'm going with this..BUT while I was watching C-SPAN they had a camera placed somewhere in the rotunda. I was watching the guards of the casket. There were men from all of the branches of the troops. There was a Navy man, a National Guard, an Army man, an Army Ranger and a Marine. I was laying in my bed thinking about what these guys were thinking. They were just standing there, staring at this casket with an American flag draped over it. I'm sure that at one point they all thought about how bad this was. But I could just see one of them thinking "OK...Bread, mustard, paper towels...Something else..Crap, she wanted me to pick up something else from the market" and another man thinking "Hold it in, I don't have to pee...Dry dessert...Sand..Hot sun...NO WATER". I felt kinda sorry for those men. Then, a few moments later, a door opened, and in came a new set of troops. They marched slowly around the velvet ropes, and then around and took the place of their person. Only the Marine I think got confused, and went to the Navy man. The navy man was next and you kinda saw him pause then resumed marching and stood by the next Marine. They all saluted, did something with their gun, then slowly, almost in slow motion the original "standers" moved back and the fresh people slid over into their place. The other people marched out. The whole thing took about ten minutes, and then more people started flooding into the room again.
I drifted off asleep.
I woke up this morning and I fell back asleep..I did this a few times before I got up for good. I decided to eat a little something, then go and do BUNS OF STEEL. I did BOG yesterday, and I will TOTALLY NOT be doing it two days in a row again. I had to quit when it got to the real fast part, and rest, then when it was time for the floor part, I started again. I didn't have the complete satisfaction at the end when she says "Great workout, I look forward to working out with you again, tomorrow". BUT my legs and thighs were KILLIN' so I was like whatever. I came up stairs and read Emma, Brad, Jill, and Sarah's blogs. Ahhh everyone had posted..GREAT! I was looking on my AIM list and was getting ready to say "HEY" to Emma because she came back from her away status, and a screen poped up. EMMA! We chatted about I love the 90s (JULY 12!!!!) and I told her that I would tape them for her. Then we kinda talked about what was going to be on I love the 90s, and how much we were looking forwaurd to it, but also how I love the 90s could never out-do the great and almighty I LOVE THE 80s. Then Emma went to pack and I got in the shower.
That's about it. I'm going to go dry my hair and sit around some more...byees!!
Saturday, June 05, 2004
HAPPY HAPPY HARRY POTTER DAY!
What a GREAT DAY!
AT FIRST, I didn't think it was going to be a good day. I woke up with a tooth ache, and I woke up an hour and a half EARLIER than I had wanted. SEE the other day I set my alarm clock so that I could get up before 2 PM, and I hit the time button instead of the alarm button, so my clock is an hour and a half off..THEN I always have an 18 minute-fast clock (because it equals 2 snoozes). So this morning, when my alarm clock went off at 10:48, it was really 9 AM. So I had snoozed and I looked at my alarm and I was like WHOA gotta get up..and go see HARRY POTTER! So I got in the shower and everything, and when I got out I realized what I did. So what do you think I did about it? THAT'S RIGHT, I went back to sleep! So I got up, and it was all yucky, hopped in some sweatpants, and a t, and went to Sadie's house to go to eat at ARRRRRRBY'S and then to HP!!!
We went to eat, and it was all good. BUT we got there right at lunch time... So it was PACKED. But it wasn't too bad. We ordered our usual and shared!!
After that, we went to the theatre. We were getting ready to walk in when I saw Will. Will is an old neighbor of mine, FUN TIMES! He's like a foot taller than I am, and he's really stong, and kinda cute...damn...I'm a friggin' pedifile.. So we went in and there was no line, GREAT, we got out tickets, and then we went to pee. I had forgotten that this bathroom wasn't the bathroom at school...and so I dropped my bag and jacket on the floor and I was like WHOA..can't do that HERE.
So we peed sugesfully, and we went to get some good seats!
We sat on the side, where the "couples" seats are. We weren't sitting too close, so we didn't have to strain out necks looking up at the screen. We chatted before the movie, but as soon as it started, we were silent (very rare). There was the occational WHOA and OMGsh, and everynow and then we would grab eachothers arm, or we would jump at the same time...GREAT MOVIE
Harry Potter 3 is MUCH better than the preceeding movies. This one is much darker and WAY scary. I LOVED IT!!!! It had SOO much more depth than the first two movies. PLUS Daniel Radcliffe was HOTTer in this one...and Ron is shapin' up, too!
After the movie, Sara and I went to Wal-Mart to get some stuff for her dinner and that's when she told me about the drive-in tonight!
13 going on 30 and Mean Girls. Two movies that I have been wanting to see. Now if you know me, you know that I like to go to the drive-in alone, and tonight was no exception.
I got there and I had to search for my normal spot...BUT as I apporched the first row, I saw it was taken..dammit. What made me mad about this was that the couple wasn't even watching the movie, they were sucking face the whole time. Everytime I looked over at thier car, I could see them...and everytime I looked over, it became INCREASINGLY hard to see them because the windows were so fogged up...errr. AND the guy got up after about 45 mins in the second movie, and went to the fence (which I was like 15 feet away from) and peed...WTF? You don't do that!
13 going on 30 was better than I thought...the THRILLER scene..GREAT!!!! Mean girls.. It was good...but the ending was sappy..but whatever...
What made me MAD about going to the drive-in though, was that I made the mistake of telling my parents that my cell phone was on. DAMMIT. So my dad called like 5 seconds after I pulled in. "Yes DAD, the doors are locked"..THEN right at the end of 13 going on 30 he called AGAIN. THEN about 30 mins til' the end of Mean Girls he called AGAIN and was like "Why aren't you home???" I said "Umm..because there are two movies".."Well...are you staying for both?"..."No dad.. the first one is just REALLY long..YES I'm staying for both". So THEN at 12:11 he called AGAIN "Why aren't you home yet?" "BECAUSE the movie isn't over yet!" "Well.. I want you home before 12:30, whether it's over or not" "WTF? FIRST you have NEVER given me a cerfew...SECOND even if you DID it's SUMMER and I'm not going home 'til the movie is over" and I hung up.
The movie ended at 12:21 EXACTLY, and I was the second person out of the lot. I got home at 12:30 ON THE DOT...and I was like "WTF? don't pull that shit AGAIN. Next time I'm NOT taking my cell" and he was like "OHH YES YOU ARE!" and I was like "Um..NO and came to my room" and I heard mom go "What is WRONG with you? She doesn't have a cerfew?" and I was like YEP THAT'S RIGHT DAMMIT!!!
OK OK so enough of my winning... just wanted to fill ya in!! Had a good day all is good in the hood...blog lata!!!
AT FIRST, I didn't think it was going to be a good day. I woke up with a tooth ache, and I woke up an hour and a half EARLIER than I had wanted. SEE the other day I set my alarm clock so that I could get up before 2 PM, and I hit the time button instead of the alarm button, so my clock is an hour and a half off..THEN I always have an 18 minute-fast clock (because it equals 2 snoozes). So this morning, when my alarm clock went off at 10:48, it was really 9 AM. So I had snoozed and I looked at my alarm and I was like WHOA gotta get up..and go see HARRY POTTER! So I got in the shower and everything, and when I got out I realized what I did. So what do you think I did about it? THAT'S RIGHT, I went back to sleep! So I got up, and it was all yucky, hopped in some sweatpants, and a t, and went to Sadie's house to go to eat at ARRRRRRBY'S and then to HP!!!
We went to eat, and it was all good. BUT we got there right at lunch time... So it was PACKED. But it wasn't too bad. We ordered our usual and shared!!
After that, we went to the theatre. We were getting ready to walk in when I saw Will. Will is an old neighbor of mine, FUN TIMES! He's like a foot taller than I am, and he's really stong, and kinda cute...damn...I'm a friggin' pedifile.. So we went in and there was no line, GREAT, we got out tickets, and then we went to pee. I had forgotten that this bathroom wasn't the bathroom at school...and so I dropped my bag and jacket on the floor and I was like WHOA..can't do that HERE.
So we peed sugesfully, and we went to get some good seats!
We sat on the side, where the "couples" seats are. We weren't sitting too close, so we didn't have to strain out necks looking up at the screen. We chatted before the movie, but as soon as it started, we were silent (very rare). There was the occational WHOA and OMGsh, and everynow and then we would grab eachothers arm, or we would jump at the same time...GREAT MOVIE
Harry Potter 3 is MUCH better than the preceeding movies. This one is much darker and WAY scary. I LOVED IT!!!! It had SOO much more depth than the first two movies. PLUS Daniel Radcliffe was HOTTer in this one...and Ron is shapin' up, too!
After the movie, Sara and I went to Wal-Mart to get some stuff for her dinner and that's when she told me about the drive-in tonight!
13 going on 30 and Mean Girls. Two movies that I have been wanting to see. Now if you know me, you know that I like to go to the drive-in alone, and tonight was no exception.
I got there and I had to search for my normal spot...BUT as I apporched the first row, I saw it was taken..dammit. What made me mad about this was that the couple wasn't even watching the movie, they were sucking face the whole time. Everytime I looked over at thier car, I could see them...and everytime I looked over, it became INCREASINGLY hard to see them because the windows were so fogged up...errr. AND the guy got up after about 45 mins in the second movie, and went to the fence (which I was like 15 feet away from) and peed...WTF? You don't do that!
13 going on 30 was better than I thought...the THRILLER scene..GREAT!!!! Mean girls.. It was good...but the ending was sappy..but whatever...
What made me MAD about going to the drive-in though, was that I made the mistake of telling my parents that my cell phone was on. DAMMIT. So my dad called like 5 seconds after I pulled in. "Yes DAD, the doors are locked"..THEN right at the end of 13 going on 30 he called AGAIN. THEN about 30 mins til' the end of Mean Girls he called AGAIN and was like "Why aren't you home???" I said "Umm..because there are two movies".."Well...are you staying for both?"..."No dad.. the first one is just REALLY long..YES I'm staying for both". So THEN at 12:11 he called AGAIN "Why aren't you home yet?" "BECAUSE the movie isn't over yet!" "Well.. I want you home before 12:30, whether it's over or not" "WTF? FIRST you have NEVER given me a cerfew...SECOND even if you DID it's SUMMER and I'm not going home 'til the movie is over" and I hung up.
The movie ended at 12:21 EXACTLY, and I was the second person out of the lot. I got home at 12:30 ON THE DOT...and I was like "WTF? don't pull that shit AGAIN. Next time I'm NOT taking my cell" and he was like "OHH YES YOU ARE!" and I was like "Um..NO and came to my room" and I heard mom go "What is WRONG with you? She doesn't have a cerfew?" and I was like YEP THAT'S RIGHT DAMMIT!!!
OK OK so enough of my winning... just wanted to fill ya in!! Had a good day all is good in the hood...blog lata!!!
Friday, June 04, 2004
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Thursday, June 03, 2004
AMAZING NEWS.... not that I'm surprized!
After one of the forementioned exceptional days, I got MORE good news today!
Lets start from the beginning..
I was talking to Mikel, and we were talking about random shit, and Ash had had this status that implied that she had some GREAT news to share..
SO as SOON as she messaged me, I was like "WTF? WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? WHAT'S UP WITH THIS... DISH GIRL!!!!"
So she told me that she had gotten some GREAT news at the print shop that she went to today (the people were like.. DAMN YOUR GOOD). THEN when she got home she got some good news from SCAD!!
I won't go into detail..but I swear, I cried for her... I was SOOOO happy! I wish that she had told me in person 'cause I was like DAMN let me give you a BEAR HUG!
I always thought that this kind of thing would make me jealous *coughs* BUT I can say that I am GENUINELY EXTATIC for Ashley. I can TRULY say that I am happy for her, and I think it's the first time I've REALLY, genuinely happy for someone. ASH..I LOVE YOU!!!
So after that, Mikel and I were talking about how AWESOME Ashley is and how PROUD of her we were (geez.. we sounded kinda like her parents!) and Mikel was like "I don't deserve her" and I was like SHUT UP (Stacy and Quientn style) you TOTAL deserve her... you two were MFEO!!!
Ash...that's what I want...I hope you get it...
But anyway... tears aside.. this was my ode to Ash..
Lets start from the beginning..
I was talking to Mikel, and we were talking about random shit, and Ash had had this status that implied that she had some GREAT news to share..
SO as SOON as she messaged me, I was like "WTF? WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? WHAT'S UP WITH THIS... DISH GIRL!!!!"
So she told me that she had gotten some GREAT news at the print shop that she went to today (the people were like.. DAMN YOUR GOOD). THEN when she got home she got some good news from SCAD!!
I won't go into detail..but I swear, I cried for her... I was SOOOO happy! I wish that she had told me in person 'cause I was like DAMN let me give you a BEAR HUG!
I always thought that this kind of thing would make me jealous *coughs* BUT I can say that I am GENUINELY EXTATIC for Ashley. I can TRULY say that I am happy for her, and I think it's the first time I've REALLY, genuinely happy for someone. ASH..I LOVE YOU!!!
So after that, Mikel and I were talking about how AWESOME Ashley is and how PROUD of her we were (geez.. we sounded kinda like her parents!) and Mikel was like "I don't deserve her" and I was like SHUT UP (Stacy and Quientn style) you TOTAL deserve her... you two were MFEO!!!
Ash...that's what I want...I hope you get it...
But anyway... tears aside.. this was my ode to Ash..
A Thursday, indeed
YAY! I have to say that today was one of the better days of the past month or so..
I had to go to the dentist, which I admit I was scared about. But once I got up, I was kinda ready for it. I went, and mom came with me, so we could go to eat after.
So they called me back there, and I sat down, they put the little bib on me, and then the dental higentist polished my teeth AND she flossed them! I know it sounds WEIRD but they never told me they could do that! I hadn't had my teeth flossed in over 2 years...it felt SOO good! So then they left me sitting there, waiting for Dr. Sumner to come in. It wasn't that bad. I like Mac's office. They have NEWSWEEK and ROLLING STONE, they also play good music. Today it was 99.5 WMAG "Your soft rock station". It was cool, I knew the songs, AND Huey Lewis and the News came on... I LOVE THE 80s!!! The only thing that wasn't too cool was that they put me in the ONE room, with like ALL the Carolina fan stuff...I think that's because last time we were talking and I admitted I'm a state fan...Or maybe just a fluke..But funny either way.
But I was sitting there for a while, and when Dr. Sumner came in he was REAL excited and half way yelled "How's it goin' Courtney?" I was like OMGsh DON'T DO THAT! He saw me jump like 5 feet in the air, and he goes "Did I scare ya" I was like... OOO how could you TELL?
But no cavities.. That's all good.
THEN as I was walking out of the little room, and down the hall, my mom was turned around and RIGHT THEN my brother (who was 30 mins late) pulled up. With an escort! He had gotten pulled for speeding... HAHAHAHAHHA Ohh I was like "HAHAHHAAHAHHA fuck you asshole!" Then I walked up to the little desk thing to give her my little paper, and mom was right behind me and said "Don't EVER tell me I wasn't the good child". The lady behind the desk COULD NOT STOP LAUGHING. It was SOOOO funny! The only REAL dissapointing thing..Dr. Sumner WASN'T wearing teal scrubs, they were like...flowerdy...weird..
After that, mom and I went to breakfast. It was OK.. Then I came home and read the paper! I had three good stories to read. One on Surry Pride ball..They won..Thanks for telling me ADAM. Then there were TWO count 'em TWO articles on Harry Potter, which BY THE WAY is opening TOMORROW! I'm PUMPED about that! I wish that I could go to the midnight showing of it..Dame my mother for NOT letting me drive to friggin' Winston.
BUT after I read that, I got a BRILLIANT idea. We have an old computer, that we don't use anymore. The processor is messed up or something. BUT since I have like WAY TOO MUCH SHIT on my pooter, I decided that I could add one of the RAM cards from the computer that was resting in my brother's closet downstairs, to mine. Well, I recuited Corey to help me out, and he got the card, I got my CPU and we set to work.
DAMN my pooter for being too new, because the RAM cards were different. ERRR. BUT it's OK, because then we sat out to clear my pooter of some SERIOUS adware.
We deleted SOOO much shit for my pooter. DAME THOSE VIRUSES!
But now, my pooter is working well..YAY! The only bad thing about it was that when we took off the panel from my pooter, there was dust EVERYWHERE. Good thing my mom is a jeweler, she had some of that air-in-a-can stuff. It's something for jewelers, but its the same thing as the keyboard air spray stuff..But I got real dirty when we cleaned it out... DAMN I have got some dust in my room!
So that's it. I surfed channels, and slept and surfed some more. Now I'm going to attempt to find something to wear tomorrow..For HARRY POTTER! 'Til next time..
I had to go to the dentist, which I admit I was scared about. But once I got up, I was kinda ready for it. I went, and mom came with me, so we could go to eat after.
So they called me back there, and I sat down, they put the little bib on me, and then the dental higentist polished my teeth AND she flossed them! I know it sounds WEIRD but they never told me they could do that! I hadn't had my teeth flossed in over 2 years...it felt SOO good! So then they left me sitting there, waiting for Dr. Sumner to come in. It wasn't that bad. I like Mac's office. They have NEWSWEEK and ROLLING STONE, they also play good music. Today it was 99.5 WMAG "Your soft rock station". It was cool, I knew the songs, AND Huey Lewis and the News came on... I LOVE THE 80s!!! The only thing that wasn't too cool was that they put me in the ONE room, with like ALL the Carolina fan stuff...I think that's because last time we were talking and I admitted I'm a state fan...Or maybe just a fluke..But funny either way.
But I was sitting there for a while, and when Dr. Sumner came in he was REAL excited and half way yelled "How's it goin' Courtney?" I was like OMGsh DON'T DO THAT! He saw me jump like 5 feet in the air, and he goes "Did I scare ya" I was like... OOO how could you TELL?
But no cavities.. That's all good.
THEN as I was walking out of the little room, and down the hall, my mom was turned around and RIGHT THEN my brother (who was 30 mins late) pulled up. With an escort! He had gotten pulled for speeding... HAHAHAHAHHA Ohh I was like "HAHAHHAAHAHHA fuck you asshole!" Then I walked up to the little desk thing to give her my little paper, and mom was right behind me and said "Don't EVER tell me I wasn't the good child". The lady behind the desk COULD NOT STOP LAUGHING. It was SOOOO funny! The only REAL dissapointing thing..Dr. Sumner WASN'T wearing teal scrubs, they were like...flowerdy...weird..
After that, mom and I went to breakfast. It was OK.. Then I came home and read the paper! I had three good stories to read. One on Surry Pride ball..They won..Thanks for telling me ADAM. Then there were TWO count 'em TWO articles on Harry Potter, which BY THE WAY is opening TOMORROW! I'm PUMPED about that! I wish that I could go to the midnight showing of it..Dame my mother for NOT letting me drive to friggin' Winston.
BUT after I read that, I got a BRILLIANT idea. We have an old computer, that we don't use anymore. The processor is messed up or something. BUT since I have like WAY TOO MUCH SHIT on my pooter, I decided that I could add one of the RAM cards from the computer that was resting in my brother's closet downstairs, to mine. Well, I recuited Corey to help me out, and he got the card, I got my CPU and we set to work.
DAMN my pooter for being too new, because the RAM cards were different. ERRR. BUT it's OK, because then we sat out to clear my pooter of some SERIOUS adware.
We deleted SOOO much shit for my pooter. DAME THOSE VIRUSES!
But now, my pooter is working well..YAY! The only bad thing about it was that when we took off the panel from my pooter, there was dust EVERYWHERE. Good thing my mom is a jeweler, she had some of that air-in-a-can stuff. It's something for jewelers, but its the same thing as the keyboard air spray stuff..But I got real dirty when we cleaned it out... DAMN I have got some dust in my room!
So that's it. I surfed channels, and slept and surfed some more. Now I'm going to attempt to find something to wear tomorrow..For HARRY POTTER! 'Til next time..
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
Doin' the "bed potato" thing..
HOW PUMPED WAS I when I went to read Emma's blog? I was getting ready to post, when I decided to look at Emma's blog and catch up with her. Weeeelll I was scrolling down and saw a link to my blog (SCORE!) and Brad's blog (Love it.. He's so random sometimes). THEN I saw Sarah Gitt's blog link. OMGsh, I don't know Sarah Gitt, at all, but I always thought she was a pretty cool chick. So I was reading all of the blogs on the first page. I like her writing style, and her FABULOUS taste in music! I wish that I had gotten to know her better...she is cool.
OK, today I did absolutely NOTHING. I got up at 9:30, and I took a shower. I was planning on cleaning my room, but after I had gotten out of the shower, I was tired...Damn.. I'm lazy.
So I got dressed (REALLY over-sized T-shirt --supporting' my good 'ole ACC torny, and some orange Soffe shorts...My summer uniform) and I stuck my hair up in a bun on the top of my head (wet, of course) and I proceeded to lay down in my bed again.
I think I took a nap, because the next thing I knew, I heard to SAVED BY THE BELL theme song. So I sat up to watch it..Sometimes I love going back and watching shows like that, because I know how they're gone end (as if they're not COMPLETELY predictable already). So I watched that, and I flipped channels until 3 pm, and I put it on Comedy Central...A movie called HIGH INFIDELITY was on. I didn't know that was the name of it, or else I wouldn't have watched it. So not knowing the movie, I decided to keep it on this channel for a while, to check it out. I know what your saying..DUDE go to TV Guide channel, and see what it is...But I couldn't find the remote, and the movie had a semi-good soundtrack, so I just lay there.
At the end I saw the credits for this crappy movie, then when I saw the name of the movie I was like WTF? FIRST why would they make a movie about this pathetic loser guy who can't chill with one girl, and SECOND...WHY is comedy central playing this crappy movie?
Now again, I know what your saying..WHY didn't you change the channel. I'll answer you that, I THOUGHT that MAYBE the movie could get better...Nope. I MOST DEF prefer SO I MARRIED AN AXE MURDERER, which was on CC yesterday..Mike Meyers is funny..
So that was pretty much it...I decided that tomorrow, since I have a dentist appointment at friggin' 8 AM that I would attempt to get my room clean. I mean.. It's bad, and I need to get my laundry done so that I can plan what I'm gonna wear for senior portraits... SOOO not looking forward to those damn things..AND I'm almost positive that June 15 is the day that I'm supposed to go fix my schedule...NOT lookin' forward to that, either. It's just because I didn't really care about this upcoming year when I registered for classes and NOW I have figured out that I want to make next year as EASY and INTERESTING and FUN as possible...Sorry Emma...All those AP classes...You BETTER go to Stanford!
So yeah... I'm scared about the dentist. I don't like going to the dentist. I always have this underlying fear that there will be a cavity or I'll need an emergency root canal or something..
Maybe I SHOULD have switched dentists to Dr. Gilreath... I know Wayne wouldn't hurt me...People who wear teal scrubs just don't seem that dangerous to me... LOL
So I'm gonna go now..And flip channels until I get to something halfway interesting...
Byee Y'all..
OK, today I did absolutely NOTHING. I got up at 9:30, and I took a shower. I was planning on cleaning my room, but after I had gotten out of the shower, I was tired...Damn.. I'm lazy.
So I got dressed (REALLY over-sized T-shirt --supporting' my good 'ole ACC torny, and some orange Soffe shorts...My summer uniform) and I stuck my hair up in a bun on the top of my head (wet, of course) and I proceeded to lay down in my bed again.
I think I took a nap, because the next thing I knew, I heard to SAVED BY THE BELL theme song. So I sat up to watch it..Sometimes I love going back and watching shows like that, because I know how they're gone end (as if they're not COMPLETELY predictable already). So I watched that, and I flipped channels until 3 pm, and I put it on Comedy Central...A movie called HIGH INFIDELITY was on. I didn't know that was the name of it, or else I wouldn't have watched it. So not knowing the movie, I decided to keep it on this channel for a while, to check it out. I know what your saying..DUDE go to TV Guide channel, and see what it is...But I couldn't find the remote, and the movie had a semi-good soundtrack, so I just lay there.
At the end I saw the credits for this crappy movie, then when I saw the name of the movie I was like WTF? FIRST why would they make a movie about this pathetic loser guy who can't chill with one girl, and SECOND...WHY is comedy central playing this crappy movie?
Now again, I know what your saying..WHY didn't you change the channel. I'll answer you that, I THOUGHT that MAYBE the movie could get better...Nope. I MOST DEF prefer SO I MARRIED AN AXE MURDERER, which was on CC yesterday..Mike Meyers is funny..
So that was pretty much it...I decided that tomorrow, since I have a dentist appointment at friggin' 8 AM that I would attempt to get my room clean. I mean.. It's bad, and I need to get my laundry done so that I can plan what I'm gonna wear for senior portraits... SOOO not looking forward to those damn things..AND I'm almost positive that June 15 is the day that I'm supposed to go fix my schedule...NOT lookin' forward to that, either. It's just because I didn't really care about this upcoming year when I registered for classes and NOW I have figured out that I want to make next year as EASY and INTERESTING and FUN as possible...Sorry Emma...All those AP classes...You BETTER go to Stanford!
So yeah... I'm scared about the dentist. I don't like going to the dentist. I always have this underlying fear that there will be a cavity or I'll need an emergency root canal or something..
Maybe I SHOULD have switched dentists to Dr. Gilreath... I know Wayne wouldn't hurt me...People who wear teal scrubs just don't seem that dangerous to me... LOL
So I'm gonna go now..And flip channels until I get to something halfway interesting...
Byee Y'all..
Comfy...
He was lying on the bed. He looked so peaceful. His little white gown with little blue designs on it. His covers placed on his chest perfectly.
She didn't want to wake him. She just walked around to the empty chair. She saw the flowers he had gotten. She added her own little vase with flowers. Tulips.
She quietly moved the chair over to the window on the far side of the room. She opend the blinds and settled down in the chair to read a bit.
When she got up, the had a blanket covering her. She looked at his bed and he was still resting.
She moved the chair back to the other side of the room. She settled down to read again. She drifeted to sleep in a few minutes. The past few days had been a bit of a blur.
When she woke up, she looked at her watch. 11:11 pm. She got up to gather her coat, and heard a faint "Don't leave".
She turned quickly to see his eyes open. He tried to sit up and she rushed to his side and gently pushed him back.
"I'm sorry I woke you", she said, "I just thought that I should leave, maybe your parents would like to come in.." "No", he said, "Stay, please."
He gave her this look, this indescribable look. She leaned down to hug him. his arms reached around her and pulled her close to him. She sat on the bed, and eventualy lay down beside him.
In the morning, the nurse came in with his breakfast. She found the two in a gental embrace. His arm tucked around her shoulder and her hand and head resting on his chest.
The nurse didn't make a noise, she just left the tray and backed out of the room.
"He is resting, but it's good..I wouldn't wake him just yet.", the nurse said to his parents.
Thanks for the help on this one, Ash!!!!
"Comfortable" ~ John Mayer
I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, aisle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave.
Can't remember, what went wrong last September
But I'm sure that you'd remind me, if you had to
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
I sleep with this new girl i'm still getting used to
my friends all approve, say she's gonna be good for you
they throw me, high fives
She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty
Life of the party
and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
or so they say, say
She thinks I can't see the smile that she's fakin'
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back.
She didn't want to wake him. She just walked around to the empty chair. She saw the flowers he had gotten. She added her own little vase with flowers. Tulips.
She quietly moved the chair over to the window on the far side of the room. She opend the blinds and settled down in the chair to read a bit.
When she got up, the had a blanket covering her. She looked at his bed and he was still resting.
She moved the chair back to the other side of the room. She settled down to read again. She drifeted to sleep in a few minutes. The past few days had been a bit of a blur.
When she woke up, she looked at her watch. 11:11 pm. She got up to gather her coat, and heard a faint "Don't leave".
She turned quickly to see his eyes open. He tried to sit up and she rushed to his side and gently pushed him back.
"I'm sorry I woke you", she said, "I just thought that I should leave, maybe your parents would like to come in.." "No", he said, "Stay, please."
He gave her this look, this indescribable look. She leaned down to hug him. his arms reached around her and pulled her close to him. She sat on the bed, and eventualy lay down beside him.
In the morning, the nurse came in with his breakfast. She found the two in a gental embrace. His arm tucked around her shoulder and her hand and head resting on his chest.
The nurse didn't make a noise, she just left the tray and backed out of the room.
"He is resting, but it's good..I wouldn't wake him just yet.", the nurse said to his parents.
Thanks for the help on this one, Ash!!!!
"Comfortable" ~ John Mayer
I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, aisle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave.
Can't remember, what went wrong last September
But I'm sure that you'd remind me, if you had to
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
I sleep with this new girl i'm still getting used to
my friends all approve, say she's gonna be good for you
they throw me, high fives
She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty
Life of the party
and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
or so they say, say
She thinks I can't see the smile that she's fakin'
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect
Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back.
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
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