*smiley face*

I’m feeling better about taking summer classes. At first, I thought that I wanted to just hang out all summer…until my parents told me it was either classes, or get a job. I guess I’m just that lazy.
I feel better about classes and stuff, because I just talked to my brother. He said he would make a few calls for me, and try to figure out some stuff for me, so that I’ll know what I can and cannot do.
The only thing that sucks is that I have to take two math classes this summer. Ugh. I hate math, But, after I take these two, I only have one more to take..EVER! As my brother said I’ll “never have to solve for x again”…ahh. Music to my ears.

And you know what? I’ll be getting ahead, I’ll meet new people, I’ll be transitioning into college, and in the Fall when some people are just getting their first tastes, I’ll already know the ropes, sort of. I’ve always known the pros would out-number the cons…now I just feel better about it. I might also get a class with Amber, and maybe one with my brother.

Now, I’ve got to get ready for Senior Trip. I haven’t gotten close to finished. I still have to get my big suit case packed, my make-up, my cds and all of my extra stuff, and my carry-on packed. And we’re leaving tomorrow night!

Tomorrow’s Toga day for the Seniors. Good ‘ole Mac came up with the idea. I’m going to be stylin’ I’ve got a pink flower-print sheet, and cool ass shoes!

Since it’s been so long since a ‘real’ post, I figured I’d catch you up on some stuff. Aaaaaannnnddd, that’s all…



Tomorrow we’ll see who the future Geeks & Greeks are.

Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic, you find joy in others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger than most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes, not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses, dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.

.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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I cannot believe I just did that.

Whoa. My dad just got back from India, and I was updating his miles on the airline's website. He flew 30 consecutive hours, both ways and a total of 26, 118 miles. Holy Cow!

I need to do my laundry. Senior Trip is this week, and I've got to wash all of my clothes and pack. Ugh. I don't like to pack. I alway over pack, a lot. I can't help it, I always like to take lots of clothing options, so that I have the oppurtunity to pick my clothes, like I do at home.
I have a giant suitcase, and then a smaller one. I just want to take one bag...but the big one is too big. Ohh, what to do?

Ahh, I'm in love...with this song..

And the one step and he's sliding
And the two steps and she's gliding
3 and the 1 and the 2
And then they float in the air

Side to side and she shows him
Back and forth cause she knows him
Round and round again
All that see them can't help but stare

Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance

Cheek to cheek cause he needs her
Hand in hand as he leads her
Face to face cause they know
They'll never dance alone

Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance

By the way she moves in circles
Ever so sweetly she wins him completly
By the way he holds her so gracefully
The hand that he lends her is able and tender
Never a step to chance
Cause everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance

Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance

Cause everyone knows they're in love
Everyone knows they're in love
Yes and everyone knows they're in love
By the way they dance

"To lose the earth you know, for greater knowing; to lose the life you have, for greater life; to leave the friends you loved, for greater loving; to find a land more kind than home, more large than earth - Whereon the pillars of this earth are founded, toward which the conscience of the world is tending--a wind is rising, and the rivers flow."

- Thomas Wolfe, You Can't Go Home Again

"May all your trails be crooked, winding, lonesome, dangerous, leading to the most amazing view where something strange and more beautiful and more full of wonder than your deepest dream awaits you." - Edward Abbey

Opie & Jessica, Pony & Cathrine, Preston & Haley, Blood & Sumer, Trevor & Jill, Mikel & Ashley, Tillman & Emma, Christian & Me...Prom 2005 

The Louvre! 

Jump, Little Children "Cathedrals"

In the shadows of tall buildings
Of fallen angels on the ceilings
Oily feathers in bronze and concrete
Faded colors, pieces left incomplete
The line moves slowly past the electric fence
Across the borders between continents

In the cathedrals of New York and Rome
There is a feeling that you should just go home
And spend a lifetime finding out just where that is

In the shadows of tall buildings
The architecture is slowly peeling
Marble statues and glass dividers
Someone is watching all of the outsiders
The line moves slowly through the numbered gate
Past the mosaic of the head of state

In the cathedrals of New York and Rome
There is a feeling that you should just go home
And spend a lifetime finding out just where that is

In the shadows of tall buildings
Of open arches endlessly kneeling
Sonic landscapes echoing vistas
Someone is listening from a safe distance
The line moves slowly into a fading light
A final moment in the dead of night

In the cathedrals of New York and Rome
There is a feeling that you should just go home
And spend a lifetime finding out just where that is

In the cathedrals of New York and Rome
There is a feeling that you should just go home
And spend a lifetime finding out just where that is

Boo! ---- AHH!

The thought of college is really scaring me now. I mean, it’s always been there, but now, it’s really setting in.

We are actually graduating in 40 days. It’s like the end of a book that you never wanted to get to, because it was so good.

I’m scared about growing up. I’m scared about turning 18 soon. I mean, it’s quite a milestone. Most people want to get older. But, I’m fine where I am. My parent’s still won’t let me go to Winston on my own…and it’s so weird, but it’s nice knowing that they’re concerned.

Soon, before I know it, actually, I’ll be off on my own. My parent’s will be miles away, and my only interaction with family will be by telephone. It’s scary. I can see myself freaking out a little bit when I’m alone.

What if, in college. I don’t make any friends? What if I never meet anyone? What if I end up hating college?

What if I chose the wrong major? What if I can never find a job, after I graduate? What if I’m never happy with my life?

I don’t even want to imagine it.

When we’re little kids, we can always joke around, and say that we’re going to be doctors and stuff. But it’s so weird, that some of my friends are actually going to be doctors. Their dreams are realized.

My life is so unorganized. And I don’t like things not organized. I like knowing that I have to go be some place, at a time, and exactly what I’ll be doing. But, I’m not lucky enough to have a great, planned-out life like that.

I need to get better at being flexible, and spontaneous.

I know that a lot of seniors in high school are thinking these same thoughts. Weird.

And I really wish that all of my friends were speaking to me. As much as I try to roll the feelings off my shoulder, I really miss being able to shoot the breeze with my friends.

Soon enough, I won’t get to, at all. Sure, they’ll be a phone call away, but it’s just not the same.

When someone has a bad break-up with a guy, or has a really bad day in class, I won’t get to be there, and hug them, and tell them that it’s ok, and that I love them.

I know that I still have a year at home. And I have a year to adjust. But, what if this next year goes by as quickly as the past year? I don’t even want to think about it, but the thought consumes my time. I can’t help it.

Ahh, I feel a lot better. If you read this entire post, thanks for listening to me ramble, and whine. And you’re a good friend.

Maybe I’ll be able to do the same for you.

Day to day, nothing ever seems to change. And then, one day, you look up, and everything is different.

.... 

"She's always buzzin' just like neon, neon, neon, neon. Who knows how long, how long, how long, she can go before she burns away..." 

The triumphant return!

While sitting at the Drive-In tonight, I decided something.

I'm going to pursue something in history. I love history. World History, The American Revolution, The French Revolution. It's all grand!

So, I may not know-know my major, and I may not know exactly what I want to do for a living, but I know that I want it to envolve my learning more and being involved in history.

Thank you & goodnight.

Nick needs to bring this classic back!  

BRAND NEW

"Soco Amaretto Lime"

Passed out on the overpass

Sunday best and broken glass

Broken down from the bikes and bars

Suspended like spirits over speeding cars

You and me were kings over the parkway tonight

And tonight will go on forever while we

walk around this town like we own the streets

and stay awake through summer like we own the heat

Singing "everybody wake up (wake up) it's time to get down"

(everybody, everybody wake up its time to get down)

And when I pass the bottle back to Pete

on the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh

I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)

So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)

And we'll never miss a party (this offer...)

cause we keep them going constantly (...stands forever)

And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)

to anyone about anything (new bracelet)

cause it's all been done and it's all been said (eyeliner)

we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get

The hell out of this town

Find some conversation

The low fuel lights been on for days

It doesn't mean anything

I've got another 500, 'nother 500 miles

before we shut this engine down,

we shut it down

I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)

So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)

And we'll never miss a party (this offer...)

cause we keep them going constantly (...stands forever)

And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)

to anyone about anything (new bracelet) c

ause it's all been done and it's all been said (eyeliner)

we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get (wait forever)

(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)

Eighteen forever (first kisses)

(your stomach's filled up but you're starved for conversation)

So we can stay like this forever (new stitches)

(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)

And we'll never miss a party (collar weekend)

(and your tearin up your photos cause you wanna forget... it's over)

cause we keep them going constantly (appearance ticket)

(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)

And we'll never have to listen (November to...)

(your stomach's filled up but you're starved for conversation)

to anyone about anything cause it's all been done (...remember)

(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)

and it's all been said (nightswimmers)

(and your tearin up your photos cause you wanna forget... it's over)

we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get

Just jealous cause we're young and in love

You're just jealous cause we're young and in love

You're just jealous cause we're young and in love

You're just jealous cause we're young and in love

You're just jealous cause we're young and in love

You're just jealous...

 

"Best friends dry the tears, down the beers and are there throughout the years. Out of our minds, crazy ass times, not only best friends, but partners in crime"

I got that quote from Eve, via Kellye.

Although it doesn't all apply to me (especially now)..it's cool.


















And, I love my friends. All of them. We have our times, but usually we work them out...

Look, old fun times. 

Chapstick, chapped lips & things like chemistry

I've had that song stuck in my head all day!

Today was a good day. Not only was I able to sleep and extra 10 minutes AND take a 15 minute shower (I shaved my legs, too!) BUT I also did well on my physics test. I was a little scared about it...but I think I did well....really well.

I'm getting excited about Senior Trip. It's in 21 days! I'm pumped that I'm sitting with Emma on the bus. It's SO funny when we get together. We always have a giggle-fit. HAHA. It makes me laugh when I think about last summer, when I went to visit her! (I know she's reading this...and cracking up!!!)

I'm sitting here, talking to Aaron and Caroline. I've been talking to them for over an hour. It's weird. Usually I'm up at 12 to do this...

Me and Aaron are talking about Prom and ebonics. It's an interesting conversation. Me and CAL are talking about getting drunk. Haha.

"I'll take you to the Candy Shop
And by 'Candy' I mean drugs
Wanna shoot some heroine? WHOA!"

The above is the Mac Sumner version of "Candy Shop"....it cracks me up in physics, when he does that!

and that is all!

 

 

Me & Sadie...wow..I'm really pale! 

the worst?

Whoa.








I'm now obsessed with MCR's Helena. I don't know why. I listened to it 5 times this morning, while I was getting ready. It's not like it really applies to me or anything. Just a good song..