I'm tired of writing papers about the Swiss health care model. I'm realllly tired of accounting, even though it looks like I'll have to take it...AGAIN.
I'm tired of this semester, and I'm afraid I'm finally starting to get senioritis and want to graduate.
I love college...but it might actually be time for me to get into gear and graduate soon...
Things with the boy didn't work out. At all. I'm finally starting to get over it..but when I see him I get really upset. I'm ready for that to be over and for me to just feel nothing toward him--unlike now where I either despise him or miss him more than I ever thought I could and wish that things were still complicated between us because I miss feeling like that for him.
I watched my boss' wedding video tonight...and it made me happy/sad. What if I never get married? What if I never find someone to share my life with?
Turning 22 really did a number on me. 21 was my "lets have fun and go to BARS" year...and now I feel like I have to grow up immediately, but I'm not ready...but everyone else is.
Does this end soon? This indecision? This questioning every little move I make and weighing more options than I ever knew could exist.
"Stop this train
I want to
get off and
go home again.
I can't take
the speed it's
moving in. I
know I can't.
But honestly, won't
someone stop this
train?"
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I miss reading.
I think I'm actually going to go home from the time residence halls close in mid December until probably New Year's Eve...and I'm going to sleep until 3pm everyday, go walk downtown EVERYDAY, and read at least 10 books.
We just had fall break...and all I can think about is how badly I am ready for Christmas and weeks at home with my family (I literally haven't been home for more than two days in at least two years...and it has finally caught up with me).
Also, I need to post to this thing more often and I will, as soon as the world switches to the 28-hour day.
Thatisall.
We just had fall break...and all I can think about is how badly I am ready for Christmas and weeks at home with my family (I literally haven't been home for more than two days in at least two years...and it has finally caught up with me).
Also, I need to post to this thing more often and I will, as soon as the world switches to the 28-hour day.
Thatisall.
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Why, Georgia
Why didn't anyone tell me that when you get older, your life is measured in hours?
You would think it would be years, right? I'm 22 (that is still a hard pill to swallow) and my life, from this point on, will be measured in hours.
I'm taking 13 class hours this semester. I have five AXiD study hours in one week. I work 10 hours per week for RA (or, I'm supposed to). I get maybe six hours of sleep per night. And when I finish this crazy experience called college, I'm supposed to spend 40 hours of my week at a job working.
I want my years back.
My mother is famous (in my head) as saying "don't wish your life away." It has hit me. Why did I want to be a grown up again??
Welcome, quarter-life crisis.
You would think it would be years, right? I'm 22 (that is still a hard pill to swallow) and my life, from this point on, will be measured in hours.
I'm taking 13 class hours this semester. I have five AXiD study hours in one week. I work 10 hours per week for RA (or, I'm supposed to). I get maybe six hours of sleep per night. And when I finish this crazy experience called college, I'm supposed to spend 40 hours of my week at a job working.
I want my years back.
My mother is famous (in my head) as saying "don't wish your life away." It has hit me. Why did I want to be a grown up again??
Welcome, quarter-life crisis.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Stuck writing a paper...feel free to do this yourself!
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
hair
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
navy blue
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes!!!
4. Do you plan outfits?
Usually I think about it in the shower.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Stressed
6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
Make-up bag
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
OMG. Sooo weird. I was in church (funny, I know) and members of the congregation were randomly debating metal or something on, like, a HUGE xylophone. And then my mom asked if I was mad because she was going to be in college at the same time I was, and I said 'yes' and she started crying. And I told her that college wasn't easy and that she was going to hate it. Then, all of a sudden, we were walking into Jon Thomas' class back at Surry and she didn't know how to get into the room (because the room was actually the Grotto in the HSU at UNC Asheville) and I told her the side door. Once we walked in I saw the chalk board from chorus in high school (it had the lines of music on it) and Thomas. And I RAN to him and gave him a big hug and we discussed how much we missed the old days when I was there (or something) and that now my mom was there and I was really annoyed. And then I woke up...CRAZY.
8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Nope
9. What are you craving right now?
Something sweet
10. Do you floss?
Yes!
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Brussels sprouts...yum
12. Are you emotional?
I can be
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Yes...that's how I used to fall asleep at my grandmothers house because it calmed me down.
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Lick!
15. Do you like your hair?
Somedays I do.
16. Do you like yourself?
Depends on the day
17. Would you go out to eat with George W.Bush?
Yes...and make fun of him
18. What are you listening to right now?
"Someone's in the kitchen" by Jump, Little Children
19. Were your parents strict?
No
20. Would you go sky diving?
Yes, please
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Ewwwwww no!
22. Have you met a celebrity?
Yes
23. Do you rent movies often?
No
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in right now?
Um...my reading lamp is silver..
25. How many countries have you visited?
One...The Bahamas
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
Yes
27. Ever been on a train?
Yes
28. Brown or white eggs?
Brown
29.Do you have a cell-phone?
Si
30. Do you use chap stick?
alllll the time
31. Do you own a gun?
NO!
32. Can you use chop sticks?
I can try to...
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Me, my history book, and my computer
34. Are you too forgiving?
No
35. Ever been in love?
Yes
36. What are your best friend(s) doing tomorrow
Class/work
37. Ever have cream puffs?
Probably
38. Last time you cried?
the beginning of summer? It's been a while
39. What was the last question you asked?
"Do you know anything about the Truman Doctrine or his policy of containment?"
40. Favorite time of the year?
Fall/winter
41. Do you have any tattoos?
no...but I might get one for my 22 birthday!
42. Are you sarcastic?
Everyday of my life.
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Ugh, yes.
44. Ever walked into a wall?
Many
45. Favorite color(s)?
teal, black, silver/gray
46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes
47. Is your hair curly?
sometimes
48. What was the last CD you bought?
probably blank ones...
49. Do looks matter?
Eh, sometimes
50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
No
51. Is your phone bill sky high?
I don't think so..
52. Do you like your life right now?
Don't ask me this question today...wait until summer classes are over.
53. Do you sleep with the T.V. on?
YES
54. Can you handle the truth?
YES
55. Do you have good vision?
Hellllll no
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Yes
57. How often do you talk on the phone?
not all that much...I prefer texts
58. The last person you held hands with?
Libby?
59. What are you wearing?
a dress
60.What is your favorite animal?
Giraffe
61. Where was your profile picture taken?
Outside of a bar in Holden Beach, NC
62. Can you hula hoop?
Negative, ghost writer
63. Do you have a job?
Maybe
64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
food
65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
yes
hair
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
navy blue
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes!!!
4. Do you plan outfits?
Usually I think about it in the shower.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Stressed
6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
Make-up bag
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
OMG. Sooo weird. I was in church (funny, I know) and members of the congregation were randomly debating metal or something on, like, a HUGE xylophone. And then my mom asked if I was mad because she was going to be in college at the same time I was, and I said 'yes' and she started crying. And I told her that college wasn't easy and that she was going to hate it. Then, all of a sudden, we were walking into Jon Thomas' class back at Surry and she didn't know how to get into the room (because the room was actually the Grotto in the HSU at UNC Asheville) and I told her the side door. Once we walked in I saw the chalk board from chorus in high school (it had the lines of music on it) and Thomas. And I RAN to him and gave him a big hug and we discussed how much we missed the old days when I was there (or something) and that now my mom was there and I was really annoyed. And then I woke up...CRAZY.
8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Nope
9. What are you craving right now?
Something sweet
10. Do you floss?
Yes!
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Brussels sprouts...yum
12. Are you emotional?
I can be
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Yes...that's how I used to fall asleep at my grandmothers house because it calmed me down.
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Lick!
15. Do you like your hair?
Somedays I do.
16. Do you like yourself?
Depends on the day
17. Would you go out to eat with George W.Bush?
Yes...and make fun of him
18. What are you listening to right now?
"Someone's in the kitchen" by Jump, Little Children
19. Were your parents strict?
No
20. Would you go sky diving?
Yes, please
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Ewwwwww no!
22. Have you met a celebrity?
Yes
23. Do you rent movies often?
No
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in right now?
Um...my reading lamp is silver..
25. How many countries have you visited?
One...The Bahamas
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
Yes
27. Ever been on a train?
Yes
28. Brown or white eggs?
Brown
29.Do you have a cell-phone?
Si
30. Do you use chap stick?
alllll the time
31. Do you own a gun?
NO!
32. Can you use chop sticks?
I can try to...
33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Me, my history book, and my computer
34. Are you too forgiving?
No
35. Ever been in love?
Yes
36. What are your best friend(s) doing tomorrow
Class/work
37. Ever have cream puffs?
Probably
38. Last time you cried?
the beginning of summer? It's been a while
39. What was the last question you asked?
"Do you know anything about the Truman Doctrine or his policy of containment?"
40. Favorite time of the year?
Fall/winter
41. Do you have any tattoos?
no...but I might get one for my 22 birthday!
42. Are you sarcastic?
Everyday of my life.
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Ugh, yes.
44. Ever walked into a wall?
Many
45. Favorite color(s)?
teal, black, silver/gray
46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes
47. Is your hair curly?
sometimes
48. What was the last CD you bought?
probably blank ones...
49. Do looks matter?
Eh, sometimes
50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
No
51. Is your phone bill sky high?
I don't think so..
52. Do you like your life right now?
Don't ask me this question today...wait until summer classes are over.
53. Do you sleep with the T.V. on?
YES
54. Can you handle the truth?
YES
55. Do you have good vision?
Hellllll no
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Yes
57. How often do you talk on the phone?
not all that much...I prefer texts
58. The last person you held hands with?
Libby?
59. What are you wearing?
a dress
60.What is your favorite animal?
Giraffe
61. Where was your profile picture taken?
Outside of a bar in Holden Beach, NC
62. Can you hula hoop?
Negative, ghost writer
63. Do you have a job?
Maybe
64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
food
65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
yes
Friday, July 17, 2009
I'll tell you of the ABCs
A - Age: 21
B - Bed size: twin
C - Chore you hate: sweeping
D - Dog's name: no dog :(
E - Essential start your day item: Q-tips
F - Favorite color: teal
G - Gold or Silver: Platinum
H - Height: 5'5"
I - Instruments you play: I used to play trumpet...
J - Job title: Student, Sister, RA.
K - Kids: Ew.
L - Living arrangements: At the moment, Governors Hall at UNC Asheville...
M - Mom's name: Bridgette
N - Nicknames: Court, Courts, CoCo, Carbon Copy...I could go on forever.
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Nada *knock on wood*
P - Pet Peeve: people taking my things without asking...even if it's a chip...I put it there for a reason!
Q - Quote from a movie:
Ham: Hey you wanna s'more?
Smalls: S'more of what?
Ham: No no, do you wanna s'more?!
Smalls: I haven't had anything yet, so how can I have some more of nothing?
Ham: YOU'RE KILLING ME SMALLS!
- The Sandlot
R - Right or left handed: right
S - Siblings: Un hermano, Corey, 35 hermanas (Alpha Xi Delta)
T - Time you wake up: I prefer sometime after noon.
U - Urgent thing on your to do list: write a history paper and finish internship project.
V - Vegetable you dislike: carrots, squash, zucchini, greens.
W - Ways you run late: Alarm not waking me up/The West Wing is on.
X - X-rays you've had: both arms, leg, ankle, chest
Y - Yummy food you make: Spaghetti and garlic bread...YUMMM
Z - Favorite Zoo Animal: Giraffe
B - Bed size: twin
C - Chore you hate: sweeping
D - Dog's name: no dog :(
E - Essential start your day item: Q-tips
F - Favorite color: teal
G - Gold or Silver: Platinum
H - Height: 5'5"
I - Instruments you play: I used to play trumpet...
J - Job title: Student, Sister, RA.
K - Kids: Ew.
L - Living arrangements: At the moment, Governors Hall at UNC Asheville...
M - Mom's name: Bridgette
N - Nicknames: Court, Courts, CoCo, Carbon Copy...I could go on forever.
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Nada *knock on wood*
P - Pet Peeve: people taking my things without asking...even if it's a chip...I put it there for a reason!
Q - Quote from a movie:
Ham: Hey you wanna s'more?
Smalls: S'more of what?
Ham: No no, do you wanna s'more?!
Smalls: I haven't had anything yet, so how can I have some more of nothing?
Ham: YOU'RE KILLING ME SMALLS!
- The Sandlot
R - Right or left handed: right
S - Siblings: Un hermano, Corey, 35 hermanas (Alpha Xi Delta)
T - Time you wake up: I prefer sometime after noon.
U - Urgent thing on your to do list: write a history paper and finish internship project.
V - Vegetable you dislike: carrots, squash, zucchini, greens.
W - Ways you run late: Alarm not waking me up/The West Wing is on.
X - X-rays you've had: both arms, leg, ankle, chest
Y - Yummy food you make: Spaghetti and garlic bread...YUMMM
Z - Favorite Zoo Animal: Giraffe
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Also...
HAPPY BASTILLE DAY!! VIVA LA FRANCE!!!
Annnnnnnnnnnnnnd the sixth, and my personal favorite, HARRY POTTER COMES OUT TONIGHT!!!!!!
I promise, loyal reader(s?), when I finally get this internship project and presentation together, I will be posting more.
I know I never put up my grandmaster grad school plan from over a year ago...but that's because it's changed!! I'm calling it GMGradschool2.0.
One more thing:
I'm trying to write some on this draft due tomorrow, and I youtubed (yeah, I did just make that a verb) "forgotten songs" and I'm listening to awesome songs...and they change every 30 seconds...My A.D.D. loves me right now.
Annnnnnnnnnnnnnd the sixth, and my personal favorite, HARRY POTTER COMES OUT TONIGHT!!!!!!
I promise, loyal reader(s?), when I finally get this internship project and presentation together, I will be posting more.
I know I never put up my grandmaster grad school plan from over a year ago...but that's because it's changed!! I'm calling it GMGradschool2.0.
One more thing:
I'm trying to write some on this draft due tomorrow, and I youtubed (yeah, I did just make that a verb) "forgotten songs" and I'm listening to awesome songs...and they change every 30 seconds...My A.D.D. loves me right now.
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