"This is how it works, you're young until you're not, you live until you're done, you try until you can't, you laugh until you cry, you cry until you laugh, and everyone must breathe until their dying breath...But this is how it works, you peer inside yourself, you take the things you like, and try to love the things you took, and then u take that love you made and stick it into some, someone else's heart, pumping someone else's blood, and walking arm in arm, you hope it won't get harmed, but even if it does, you'd just do it all again..."
--Regina Spektor, On the Radio.
The video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PErGYWLO9GE
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
I've said this about a million times, but I don't know if I ever said it on my blog..
The questions of where you were when Columbine, 9/11, and the day that Michael Jackson died are my generation's markers.
As I sit here listening to Pink Floyd's "Time" and pondering what is to come, a wave of sadness hits me like a brick wall. And I realize. I am an adult. And these generational markers are occurring in my time.
I know where my mother was when Elvis died (she was at marching bad practice at Mount Airy High School on the football field, and it was announced on the intercom) and now...I will tell my nieces and nephews of the tragedies that occurred before they were born, too.
My parents' generation has the "Where were you when Kennedy was shot" question.
I am only 21, and I already have a lot of generational markers/tragedies.
Does life/existence grow exponentially?
(I really want to use the word "half-life" here...but I don't think it's the right way to explain this new theory)
This week has been kind of crazy. Jon and Kate are getting divorced and Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcett, and Michael Jackson all died. E! News has been ridiculously busy.
(OK, so, I took a 3 hour break writing this post and I got cheered up, so it didn't end up as serious as I was originally intending. But I really hope you understand what I'm trying to say. If not, I will get back to this eventually.)
For now, one of my favorite Michael Jackson songs:
As I sit here listening to Pink Floyd's "Time" and pondering what is to come, a wave of sadness hits me like a brick wall. And I realize. I am an adult. And these generational markers are occurring in my time.
I know where my mother was when Elvis died (she was at marching bad practice at Mount Airy High School on the football field, and it was announced on the intercom) and now...I will tell my nieces and nephews of the tragedies that occurred before they were born, too.
My parents' generation has the "Where were you when Kennedy was shot" question.
I am only 21, and I already have a lot of generational markers/tragedies.
Does life/existence grow exponentially?
(I really want to use the word "half-life" here...but I don't think it's the right way to explain this new theory)
This week has been kind of crazy. Jon and Kate are getting divorced and Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcett, and Michael Jackson all died. E! News has been ridiculously busy.
(OK, so, I took a 3 hour break writing this post and I got cheered up, so it didn't end up as serious as I was originally intending. But I really hope you understand what I'm trying to say. If not, I will get back to this eventually.)
For now, one of my favorite Michael Jackson songs:
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
The warm weather has officially hit the mountains of North Carolina.
For some reason, I thought it would take at least two more weeks to arrive (until July) but no, it is HOT.
I'm smack-dab in the middle of my internship.
I say this EVERY summer and I always wish I hadn't later...but I want September!
I want classes this summer to be over with, I'm ready to see if my GPA has gotten ANY better, I'm ready to RAness to start again, I'm ready for AXiD Chapter meetings, I'm ready for my fall classes. I want my routine.
I started this because I thought it would be a long post...and now I have nothing to say..
I'm going to sleep with an ice pack and hope that the air decides to come on tonight.
For some reason, I thought it would take at least two more weeks to arrive (until July) but no, it is HOT.
I'm smack-dab in the middle of my internship.
I say this EVERY summer and I always wish I hadn't later...but I want September!
I want classes this summer to be over with, I'm ready to see if my GPA has gotten ANY better, I'm ready to RAness to start again, I'm ready for AXiD Chapter meetings, I'm ready for my fall classes. I want my routine.
I started this because I thought it would be a long post...and now I have nothing to say..
I'm going to sleep with an ice pack and hope that the air decides to come on tonight.
Friday, June 05, 2009
I was bored..
1. Who was your FIRST prom date.
Bobby Watts
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
When we run into each other...we're from the same town and go to the same, small college.
4. What was your FIRST job?
Leon's Burger Express. Downtown Mount Airy. I was the best damn dishwasher they EVER had!
5. What was your FIRST car?
1992 Ford Escort (wagon)
6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
Libby.
7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
Martin Sheen (The West Wing was on..)
8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
Mrs. Scott.
9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
From North Carolina to the Bahamas.
10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
Sara Hill and not really..
11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
Probably at my house or Kellye's house.
12. Who was the first person you talked to today?
Veronica.
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
My brothers.
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
Use the rest room.
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
Copeland and Further Seems Forever at Ziggy's in Winston-Salem.
16. FIRST tattoo?
Nada.
17. FIRST piercing?
Ears.
18. FIRST foreign country you went to?
The Bahamas!
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
White Guys Can't Jump at the Bright Leaf Drive-In in Mount Airy, NC.
20. When was your FIRST detention?
The FIRST day of high school, freshman year. Damn you Mr. Lewis!!
21. Who was your FIRST roommate?
Kristyn Plante
22. If you had one wish, what would it be?
A boat-load of money. So I could do whatever the EFF I wanted to!!
23. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
French.
24. Did you marry the FIRST person to ask for your hand in marriage?
Um...no one's asked...
25. What was the first sport that you were involved in?
Tennis?
26. What were the first lessons you ever took
Ballet
27. What is the first thing you do when you get home?
Check my e-mail.
28. Who do you think will be the first person to post this?
People still read this thing?
29. When was your first kiss 'that you would count'?
Senior year, the night before Service of Celebration, in front of my car (also in front of his house) by Nathan Rattermann.
30. In what grade did you feel really confident?
Junior year of high school.
31. When did you receive your first "F" in school?
Fall semester 2008. Worst.semester.ever.
32. First important event / activity from which you were cut?
Probably sometime in elementary school...being taken off of a solo or part.
33. When did you first realize that you no longer believed in what you once believed in?
Ohh Jesus...um...probably around 6th grade. I let go of my small-child notions.
34. What is your most memorable family vacation?
The first trip to the Bahamas, or the trip to Tennessee (just because my brother and I HATED it).
35. What would you do over if you could?
The past school year.
36. Besides raising your children and marrying your spouse, what accomplishment are you most proud of?
Being an RA at UNC Asheville, and joining Alpha Xi Delta Sorority. Best two decisions I have ever made. Hands down..and there will be no raising of the children...I leave that up to other people...I want to change this question to "help raising your God-children, nieces/nephews.
Bobby Watts
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
When we run into each other...we're from the same town and go to the same, small college.
4. What was your FIRST job?
Leon's Burger Express. Downtown Mount Airy. I was the best damn dishwasher they EVER had!
5. What was your FIRST car?
1992 Ford Escort (wagon)
6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
Libby.
7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
Martin Sheen (The West Wing was on..)
8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
Mrs. Scott.
9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
From North Carolina to the Bahamas.
10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
Sara Hill and not really..
11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
Probably at my house or Kellye's house.
12. Who was the first person you talked to today?
Veronica.
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
My brothers.
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
Use the rest room.
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
Copeland and Further Seems Forever at Ziggy's in Winston-Salem.
16. FIRST tattoo?
Nada.
17. FIRST piercing?
Ears.
18. FIRST foreign country you went to?
The Bahamas!
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
White Guys Can't Jump at the Bright Leaf Drive-In in Mount Airy, NC.
20. When was your FIRST detention?
The FIRST day of high school, freshman year. Damn you Mr. Lewis!!
21. Who was your FIRST roommate?
Kristyn Plante
22. If you had one wish, what would it be?
A boat-load of money. So I could do whatever the EFF I wanted to!!
23. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
French.
24. Did you marry the FIRST person to ask for your hand in marriage?
Um...no one's asked...
25. What was the first sport that you were involved in?
Tennis?
26. What were the first lessons you ever took
Ballet
27. What is the first thing you do when you get home?
Check my e-mail.
28. Who do you think will be the first person to post this?
People still read this thing?
29. When was your first kiss 'that you would count'?
Senior year, the night before Service of Celebration, in front of my car (also in front of his house) by Nathan Rattermann.
30. In what grade did you feel really confident?
Junior year of high school.
31. When did you receive your first "F" in school?
Fall semester 2008. Worst.semester.ever.
32. First important event / activity from which you were cut?
Probably sometime in elementary school...being taken off of a solo or part.
33. When did you first realize that you no longer believed in what you once believed in?
Ohh Jesus...um...probably around 6th grade. I let go of my small-child notions.
34. What is your most memorable family vacation?
The first trip to the Bahamas, or the trip to Tennessee (just because my brother and I HATED it).
35. What would you do over if you could?
The past school year.
36. Besides raising your children and marrying your spouse, what accomplishment are you most proud of?
Being an RA at UNC Asheville, and joining Alpha Xi Delta Sorority. Best two decisions I have ever made. Hands down..and there will be no raising of the children...I leave that up to other people...I want to change this question to "help raising your God-children, nieces/nephews.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Stuck.in.my.head.
It was 5:45 on a friday
I was waitin' for a train goin' my way
I stood packed on a platform in Brooklyn
Where everybody's pushin', but nobody's lookin'
So I got crushed in the rush for the subway
By the little old man tryin to shove me
Well I noticed her when I glanced sideways
And felt continents shifting inside me
I was dressed in my best polyester
And I could tell that the plastic impressed her
Cuz she smiled as she eased up beside me
And then she said she had things to confide, see
She said her dad ran away with Samantha
The middle-aged exotic dancer
So her mom had to turn to her savior
And here's the advice that he gave her
He said reese's pieces, sweedish fish
Oodles of skittles and red liccorice
Marshmallow mints and a chocolate kiss
And it melts in your mouth like this
Take out your contacts and look at the screen
Take off your make-up and look at the scene
If you break your restrictions, then you'll understand me
Take your persrciption of sugar and candy, oh yeah
We arrived there by way of the highway
After night drives with trinklets and tirades
To a town bound with old guards and dry docks
Bored I drug my ass of the bus and hit the sidewalks
I stumbled by the lane name of My Way
And got caught in the street by treading lightly
The fish passed me by led by fish hooks
I hit pop flies and caught their strange looks
But one figure struggled just to stand there
He was a one-legged man in his wheel chair
I struck out a course for his lantern
I put out a hand and then he grabbed me
He told a lifetime of boxcars and bi-ways
Of the times of stock yards and chain gangs and two legs
He offered his advice for a penny
And for that small price here's what he gave me
Take out your contacts and look at the screen
Take off your make-up and look at the scene
If you break your restrictions, then you'll understand me
Take your persrciption of sugar and candy, oh yeah
Obviously, I didn't type this...I could never use "cuz"
Still a GREAT song!
I was waitin' for a train goin' my way
I stood packed on a platform in Brooklyn
Where everybody's pushin', but nobody's lookin'
So I got crushed in the rush for the subway
By the little old man tryin to shove me
Well I noticed her when I glanced sideways
And felt continents shifting inside me
I was dressed in my best polyester
And I could tell that the plastic impressed her
Cuz she smiled as she eased up beside me
And then she said she had things to confide, see
She said her dad ran away with Samantha
The middle-aged exotic dancer
So her mom had to turn to her savior
And here's the advice that he gave her
He said reese's pieces, sweedish fish
Oodles of skittles and red liccorice
Marshmallow mints and a chocolate kiss
And it melts in your mouth like this
Take out your contacts and look at the screen
Take off your make-up and look at the scene
If you break your restrictions, then you'll understand me
Take your persrciption of sugar and candy, oh yeah
We arrived there by way of the highway
After night drives with trinklets and tirades
To a town bound with old guards and dry docks
Bored I drug my ass of the bus and hit the sidewalks
I stumbled by the lane name of My Way
And got caught in the street by treading lightly
The fish passed me by led by fish hooks
I hit pop flies and caught their strange looks
But one figure struggled just to stand there
He was a one-legged man in his wheel chair
I struck out a course for his lantern
I put out a hand and then he grabbed me
He told a lifetime of boxcars and bi-ways
Of the times of stock yards and chain gangs and two legs
He offered his advice for a penny
And for that small price here's what he gave me
Take out your contacts and look at the screen
Take off your make-up and look at the scene
If you break your restrictions, then you'll understand me
Take your persrciption of sugar and candy, oh yeah
Obviously, I didn't type this...I could never use "cuz"
Still a GREAT song!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Blahh
Bored...and I didn't follow the rules...
Answer True or False
Q: Kissed someone on your friends list? Si
Q: Been arrested? No
Q: Do you like someone? Si
Q: Held a snake? In Mr. John's 8th grade science class!
Q: Been suspended from school? NO
Q: Sang karaoke? Yes
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? Yep
Q: Laughed until you started crying? Ohhhh yes!
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Si
Q: Kissed in the rain? Yes
Q: Sang in the shower? Si
Q: Sat on a roof top? Yes
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No
Q: Broken a bone? Yes...too many
Q: Shaved your head? No
Q: Played a prank on someone? Who hasn't?
Q: Shot a gun? NO!
Q: Donated Blood? No
LAST PERSON:
1. You hung out with? Renee
2. You texted? Libby
3. You were in a car with? Sam?
4. Went to the movies with? Marky Mark
5. Person you went to shop with? Libby?
6. You talked on the phone? Libby
7. Made you laugh? Chelsea Handler
8. You hugged? Tayler
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
1. Sun or moon? Moon
2. Winter or Fall? Winter
3. Left or Right? Right
4. Sunny or rainy? Sunny
5. Where do you live? Asheville, North Carolina
6. Club or pub? PUB!
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on? More than that but yes.
8. Do you want to get married? Yes
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl
10. What time is it? 3:22am
11. Are you afraid of commitment? No
12. What is your greatest hope/wish? To have a positive impact
13. Do you cook? Si
14. Current mood? Heartburn/restless
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU:
1. Kissed someone? No
2. Sang? Ohh yes!
3. Listened to music? Yes
4. Danced crazy? I'm sure
5. Cried? No...but I wanted to
6. Liked someone you can't have? Yes
25 FIRSTS
1.Who was your first prom date? Bobby Watts!
2. Who was your first roommate? Krystin Plante
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? Lemon/Lime Jell-O shot (it was a freaking STEIN)
4. What was your first work-study job? UNC Asheville Art Department
6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing? 3 years ago when my grandfather died
7. Who was your first grade teacher? Mrs. Scott
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? The Bahamas
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time? I've never had to...
11. Who was your first best friend? Andrew
12. Who was your first Best Friend in high school? Sara Hill
13. Where was your first sleepover? Probably with my cousin Ashley
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? Kylee
15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a Bridesmaid or groomsman? My brother and Amber's wedding.
16. What's the first thing you did when you got up this morning? BATHROOM!
17. What was the first concert you went to? Copeland and Further Seems Forever at Ziggy's in Winston-Salem.
18. What was the last concert you went to? UNCA 5 Cord Stud/Undertones/All Girl Staff
19. First tattoo or piercing? My ears when I was six.
20. First celebrity crush? Leonardo DiCaprio
21. Current celebrity crush? Elijah Wood
22. First crush? Kyle Thomas?
23. Current crush? Not even going there.
24. First date? maybe my first prom? or with Randy
25. First time you tied your shoe laces? Um........the last time I didn't wear flip flops?
Six names you go by:
1. Courtney
2. Court
3. Courts
4. Carbon Copy
5. 'Little
6. CoCo
Three things you are wearing right now:
1. Socks
2. Pajama pants
3. Tank top
Three things you want very badly at the moment:
1. La playa on June 30th
2. MONEY
3. My sisters/friends
Two things you did last night:
1. Unpacked
2. Sent a TON of e-mails
Two things you ate today:
1. McDonald's
2. Dairy Queen
Two people you last talked to on the phone:
1. Libby
2. Mi Madre
Three things you are going to do tomorrow:
1. Go to Wal-Mart
2. Sleep as looooooong as I wanna
3. Pack for rafting on Sunday
Two longest car rides:
1. Mount Airy to Memphis
2. Mount Airy to Orlando
Favorite beverages:
1. Water
2. Grape Kool-Aid
3. Dr. Pepper (even though I'm giving up soda on July 1)
Answer True or False
Q: Kissed someone on your friends list? Si
Q: Been arrested? No
Q: Do you like someone? Si
Q: Held a snake? In Mr. John's 8th grade science class!
Q: Been suspended from school? NO
Q: Sang karaoke? Yes
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? Yep
Q: Laughed until you started crying? Ohhhh yes!
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Si
Q: Kissed in the rain? Yes
Q: Sang in the shower? Si
Q: Sat on a roof top? Yes
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No
Q: Broken a bone? Yes...too many
Q: Shaved your head? No
Q: Played a prank on someone? Who hasn't?
Q: Shot a gun? NO!
Q: Donated Blood? No
LAST PERSON:
1. You hung out with? Renee
2. You texted? Libby
3. You were in a car with? Sam?
4. Went to the movies with? Marky Mark
5. Person you went to shop with? Libby?
6. You talked on the phone? Libby
7. Made you laugh? Chelsea Handler
8. You hugged? Tayler
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
1. Sun or moon? Moon
2. Winter or Fall? Winter
3. Left or Right? Right
4. Sunny or rainy? Sunny
5. Where do you live? Asheville, North Carolina
6. Club or pub? PUB!
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on? More than that but yes.
8. Do you want to get married? Yes
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl
10. What time is it? 3:22am
11. Are you afraid of commitment? No
12. What is your greatest hope/wish? To have a positive impact
13. Do you cook? Si
14. Current mood? Heartburn/restless
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU:
1. Kissed someone? No
2. Sang? Ohh yes!
3. Listened to music? Yes
4. Danced crazy? I'm sure
5. Cried? No...but I wanted to
6. Liked someone you can't have? Yes
25 FIRSTS
1.Who was your first prom date? Bobby Watts!
2. Who was your first roommate? Krystin Plante
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? Lemon/Lime Jell-O shot (it was a freaking STEIN)
4. What was your first work-study job? UNC Asheville Art Department
6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing? 3 years ago when my grandfather died
7. Who was your first grade teacher? Mrs. Scott
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? The Bahamas
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time? I've never had to...
11. Who was your first best friend? Andrew
12. Who was your first Best Friend in high school? Sara Hill
13. Where was your first sleepover? Probably with my cousin Ashley
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? Kylee
15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a Bridesmaid or groomsman? My brother and Amber's wedding.
16. What's the first thing you did when you got up this morning? BATHROOM!
17. What was the first concert you went to? Copeland and Further Seems Forever at Ziggy's in Winston-Salem.
18. What was the last concert you went to? UNCA 5 Cord Stud/Undertones/All Girl Staff
19. First tattoo or piercing? My ears when I was six.
20. First celebrity crush? Leonardo DiCaprio
21. Current celebrity crush? Elijah Wood
22. First crush? Kyle Thomas?
23. Current crush? Not even going there.
24. First date? maybe my first prom? or with Randy
25. First time you tied your shoe laces? Um........the last time I didn't wear flip flops?
Six names you go by:
1. Courtney
2. Court
3. Courts
4. Carbon Copy
5. 'Little
6. CoCo
Three things you are wearing right now:
1. Socks
2. Pajama pants
3. Tank top
Three things you want very badly at the moment:
1. La playa on June 30th
2. MONEY
3. My sisters/friends
Two things you did last night:
1. Unpacked
2. Sent a TON of e-mails
Two things you ate today:
1. McDonald's
2. Dairy Queen
Two people you last talked to on the phone:
1. Libby
2. Mi Madre
Three things you are going to do tomorrow:
1. Go to Wal-Mart
2. Sleep as looooooong as I wanna
3. Pack for rafting on Sunday
Two longest car rides:
1. Mount Airy to Memphis
2. Mount Airy to Orlando
Favorite beverages:
1. Water
2. Grape Kool-Aid
3. Dr. Pepper (even though I'm giving up soda on July 1)
Monday, May 25, 2009
Google knows too much.
Ok, so, my school is super poor these days (yes, I do usually refer to it as a "punk-ass university") so we are getting ready to switch our e-mail to Gmail.
I have a Gmail account already. And I looooove it. So tonight I decided to attempt to switch my school e-mail to my new school Gmail.
I got a little scared.
So, then I decided to browse around my current Gmail and see what all it can do. I updated my calendar with all of my summer dates (and loved it...I'm such a dork) and then looked around some more.
I've already used Google Docs (I don't know if I wrote about this last summer, but I wrote a 10 page paper on Google for my marketing class...that really had nothing to do with what I was talking about...shit), so I continued to browse.
"Pictures" that sounds cool...I'll go to it next....
...........it has all of the pictures I've ever posted to my blog. And all of my profile pictures. Ever.
Whooooasies.
I know that Google owns Blogger...but I wasn't ready for that.
But the cool new thing that I just learned is the "Sites" button where you can make your own website...that will look spiffy when I present my internship!!
I have a Gmail account already. And I looooove it. So tonight I decided to attempt to switch my school e-mail to my new school Gmail.
I got a little scared.
So, then I decided to browse around my current Gmail and see what all it can do. I updated my calendar with all of my summer dates (and loved it...I'm such a dork) and then looked around some more.
I've already used Google Docs (I don't know if I wrote about this last summer, but I wrote a 10 page paper on Google for my marketing class...that really had nothing to do with what I was talking about...shit), so I continued to browse.
"Pictures" that sounds cool...I'll go to it next....
...........it has all of the pictures I've ever posted to my blog. And all of my profile pictures. Ever.
Whooooasies.
I know that Google owns Blogger...but I wasn't ready for that.
But the cool new thing that I just learned is the "Sites" button where you can make your own website...that will look spiffy when I present my internship!!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Rose, Rose, I love you.
It's FINALLY summer, I (barely) passed all of my classes, and I'm already back in Asheville.
I love this place.
So, I got back on Monday after leaving Friday night...home was...home? I guess..
I have internet in my room finally! So, I'm going to try to update way more often.
As for now, I just ripped my room apart fixing my cable wires...so I have to put it back and unpack...
More later!
I love this place.
So, I got back on Monday after leaving Friday night...home was...home? I guess..
I have internet in my room finally! So, I'm going to try to update way more often.
As for now, I just ripped my room apart fixing my cable wires...so I have to put it back and unpack...
More later!
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