Almost 10 years ago...

So, I'm in the middle of writing a paper for one of my classes on Generation Y...my generation..

I'm having to define what has made us team players and why we have the desire to have it all and live life to the fullest...when I read an article talking about how living through the tragedies of the first Gulf War, Columbine, Virgina Tech and other events have brought us together.

Then, I decided to look up Columbine. Did you know that the 10th Anniversary of Columbine is Monday, April 20??

It's been 10 YEARS. 10 YEARS! Ten years ago when it happened, it was out of school "sick" because I had just gotten back from the beach with my grandparents and two cousins (our yearly trip to the Outer Banks). I cannot believe it. It's like remembering what I was doing on 9/11 (I was also out of school sick that day...only this time I really was sick and I remember seeing it, going to the doctor, and then sleeping and remembering listening to the news for the next week).

And this got me thinking...

When Virgina Tech happened, I don't remember if I skipped class (I probably did), but I was at App, and I had JUST found out I got into UNC Asheville...like, the day before I think. And the first time I saw Catherine (a good friend I went to high school and App with), after it happened she was congratulating me on getting to transfer, and then started talking about how crazy the Virgina Tech thing was. And I started crying. We were having our morning muffin before class that morning in Cascades (a cafe in the student union at App) and I started crying.

I remember this because it was the first time I had been emotional in pubic since I was probably six.

Now, I realize that was me breaking down a little wall I had, and realizing it was ok to be emotional.

I don't know why this came to me tonight, but it did. And, because I use this as my personal journal sometimes, I needed to write it down so that later I can try to figure it out.






On a lighter note, I rediscovered my LOVE for the band Built to Spill and it makes me miss high school, Pony's house, and Tillman's singing.