Karmic Retribution?

Let me begin this post with a disclaimer: I can be a flake. I can be a flake when I don't realize that I am, I can be flakey and completely mean it. I think all of us can, really. But I will admit, sometimes I can flake. (It really just depends on the situation)

Saying that. I think my karma has come back to bite me in the ass.

Now, I'm too lazy to look it up, but I'm pretty sure I posted about the "date" I had with a guy named Phil a few months ago. The date from hell?? At Chili's?

If not, I had a crappy date with this guy named Phil at Chili's over Spring Break (I think).

I hadn't really talked to him since then, and then a couple of weeks ago, we started talking on IM and he started texting me again. Alright. It's ok. I was PISSED at first, "Who does he think he is? You can't not talk to me for two months...." and then I remembered how much I had liked him.

So, last week, we're talking and he says that he wants to come visit me.

Whoaaaaaaaaa. Whoaaaaaa. WHAT?

So, we made semi-plans for him to come up and spend two nights, this coming weekend.

Now, Phil can be a flake, just as much as I can. The night before I was coming back to school after some break (Christmas maybe?) we were supposed to meet up. He never called, never texted, never showed. That one hurt. We had had a couple of things before then, and then he totally dropped me.

So, I'm REALLY excited for this weekend (not only is Phil SUPPOSED to come up, but I'm going to a Tourist game on Thursday, and there's a big party on Saturday night...so I have plans), but in the back of my head, I'm so afraid he's going to flake on me....again.

I know what you're thinking. "Courtney...why are you even still in communication with this bozo?"

I have nothing to say for myself. I'm not attracted to the 'bad boy' (and I truly don't think that Phil is one) I'm just REALLY attracted to him. And it sucks. Because I can see where this has the potential to go...and of course I don't like it.

So, is this my karma? Is this my punishment for all of those unreturned calls, texts, messages (legit or not?)??

I guess I'll let you know Saturday (when he's supposed to come up).





*This is kind of a note for myself...and you can bother me about it until I post it...but I think I have a grad school plan...it's a goodie too, so I need to write it out*