Life:

One of the most beautiful song lyrics, ever.


Our youth is fleeting
Old age is just around the bend
And I can't wait to go gray
And I'll sit in wonder
Of every love that could've been
If I'd only thought of something
Charming to say

This is a verse from "The Sound of Setteling" by Death Cab for Cutie.

This song is my life right now.

Kathryn got married!!

..and I have pictures to prove it!

Me and the Bride!




Caroline being silly




Kathryn and Papa Hiatt..father/daughter dance




Mr. and Mrs. R. Steven Huff




Naked Cal!




I freaking love Emma Jane Refvem. (period)




Brad Gentry!




Me and Emma being ridiculous.

I have a 5 day break during exams.

And instead of studying the whole time, I've found my next goal: master garageband.

I forgot I had it!!

Yay.

I'm a dork.

I know.

Grandaddy - AM 180

Don’t change your name
Keep it the same
For fear I may lose you again
I know you won't
It's just that I
Am unorganized
And I want to find you
When something good happens
"AM 180" is a song I've LOVED since high school. It's on that Tillman introduced me to.

It popped up on a commercial tonight. But I couldn't find the commenercial because I couldn't remember what it was...because I was too busy freaking out about Grandaddy being on a national ad campaign (I think it was for a car).

WHOAAA!!




If you come down
We'll go to town
I haven't been there for years
But I’d be fine
Wasting our time
Not doing anything here
Just doing nothing

We’ll sit for days
And talk about things
Important to us like whatever
We'll defuse bombs
And walk marathons
And take on whatever, together

In the Secret Garden she hides...

My new favorite thing is reading. I used to just deal with the fact that I never had time to read for pleasure, but not now. I carve out time to sit and read everyday.

My summer reading list:

Catch 22
Les Miserables (again)
Catcher in the Rye (again)
The Chronicles of Narnia, again. (I just bought all 7 books in ONE off of Amazon for $3.73!)
Alice in Wonderland (Got it off of Amazon for $2.75!)
..and I want to re-read some of the books from when I was younger like Hatchet, and Count the Stars

I'm very excited, and READY for summer!!!!!!

16 Days until Mayberry for a month!

I can't sleep, go figure

I'm reading this book, by one of my favorite authors, Wally Lamb. Man, that guy can write.

She's come undone changed my life, literally.

Anyway, I'm reading "I know this much is true" about two identical twins, Dominick and Thomas. Only, Thomas is sick, very sick. Sick in the head. And Dominick isn't. There's no hint of mental illness in him. So, the book is going through, documenting their separate lives as not sick, and very sick.

The book is almost 900 pages. I'm just at the half-way mark. I've been reading it off and on for about two weeks. It's great. It's the kind of book I stay up until 4 am reading because I don't want to put it down.

Ever since I saw "When Harry Met Sally," I've read the first chapter, then skipped and either read the last chapter, or the last page. Curiosity kills the cat, I guess.

Anyway, I, of course, did that with this book. But tonight, geared up from this weekend, and the code red I downed to finsih some work, but won't wear off, I couldn't take it.

I skipped ahead, but I already knew what the last page was about. I needed to find out some more details. I thought it would help me sleep or something. Nope.

I've ruined the story. No, I wouldn't say ruined, I saw a few things coming. However, I had to search for them. I've gotten the big stuff out of the way. Very interesting. I always envy writers. If this stuff hasn't happened to you, then how the hell do you write it? Like television wiriters, I'm sure they've had some of those experiences, and then thew in some funny lines and BAM! Freinds. But, in novels, this stuff was made up, holy shit. How is this done?

I have a crush on someone, completely off limits. Sad. More about that later, maybe? I've got some soul-searching to do.

"Whoooooo'll stop the rain" - I love CCR.

Anyway, I've had this song by Hanson stuck in my head alllll day long. "I'll be with you in your dreams" and it feels like something is talking to me. Like, I really will find out something in my dreams or something. Like I can tell the future, and it's saying "FUCKING SLEEP ALREADY AND FIND OUT THE SECRET OF LIFE" or something. But maybe it's the anticipation. Like Chirstmas. Have you ever seen "In the Army Now"? That just popped up. (I just re-read this...kinda weird how I talk about someone being mentally ill up a few lines, and here I am talking about the voices in my head...whoaaaaaaa.)

I've got a busy week ahead. Which porobaly isn't helping my sleeping situation. Spanish test at 11:25, which I didn't even crack my book to study for (no me gusta espanol, ok?), a stats presentaion either today or Wednesday. And one of my group members STILL hasn't e-mailed me his pages to print (I just checked). Law is getting annoying. However, I caught up COMEPLETELY with my portfoili tonight, so that's cool. I wish I could burn my corporate finance book.

Anyway, the pressure's on. Because if I can get a 90 on the presentation in Stats, then I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE THE FINAL! So, I think I'm really toying with that. Ohh yeah, I have a spanish speech on Wedndesday that I haven't even started on. Three minutes of plans for fin de semana. Any ideas? I know how to say wedding "Matrimonio/a" I'm pretty sure. I've had to use it before.

I facebooked Emma tonight. She's going to Kathryn's wedding reception on Saturday. I haven't seen Emma since I ran into her at Christmas when we were both going to see Juno. But I haven't TALKED to her in, holyshitIcan'tevenremember.

It's 5:04 and I'm wired for sound!

Hey Kathryn, you get to see the Appalachian Mountains this week. Whoa. Literally, everytime I go to the parkway, I silently say hey to the mountains for Kathryn. It's our thing, I guess.

Ahhhhhhh I'll never sleep again. I feeeeeel it.


Ohh, I think I've figured out the secret of life.

This didn't come to me in a dream.

Perspective.

I don't know if there's a God. I have no idea. I don't want to say if I'm on the fence, I'm just trying to make up my mind. Anyway. If there is, if there isn't. Whatever.

I just think that everyone sees something different in life. People live it comepletely different. COMEPLETELY. I mean, people in this country, and others, totally different lives.

I think our quest as humans, whether that quest was put forth by some amazing thing/person, or if the universe is just toying with us, I think we're supposed to learn all we can from other people. We're supposed to open ourselves to other people, learn their story, understand or try to understand their lives, where they came from. Their struggles, their sucess. Their history.

To gain perspective.

This came to me driving in my car today. I thought it was interesting. My mind was wandering to places it shouldn't, and the thought came to me. Drivng through the traffic circle on W.T. Weaver. I'll need to remeber this one day, which is why I'm writing it now. Call me crazy.

Anyway, how does that sound? Perspective. Maybe we're supposed to spread a word, maybe we're supposed to go back to the mother-ship, maybe we're supposed to just listen to other people. Find them out, and find something out about ourselves.

The only problem is, the asshole rednecks, and close-minded people. Maybe that's what we're supposed to do, open them up.

Ahh, who knows? I really did think that someone found out the secret of life high, or drunk or something on a public bus (who knows? That 70's Show?). But yeah. Perspective. My new favorite word, my new favorite quest.

Gain perspective.




Ohh yeah, we alllll know what I bad speller I am, and the little squiggly red lines aren't popping up, so take some guesses about what I'm trying to say.

GSE!!

I only listen to this song in the Spring/Summer time. Don't ask why. Just listen to the greatness that is Jump, Little Children.

I was going to put up a youtube video of "Mexico." But I found GSE representin' on youtube instead (and no good versions of "Mexico")




I really only listen to J,LC in the summer in general. I can't explain it. But it's about that time, so I'm bringin' 'em back to my playlist.

Kathryn's getting married on Friday.

I get to see her married self on Saturday, with alllll of my old crew from high school.

I can't get my head out of the clouds, and I can't get a smile off my face.

My mind is not where it needs to be.

Finals are next week, and my mind is in never-never land. (The Disney kind, not the Jacko kind).

If you see me in the next two weeks, SHAKE ME and tell me to snap out of it, and come back from daydreaming.

Seriously, yell at me.