Illegally posting from Biltmore!!!

Eleventh time and I still get as gitty as a eight-year-old!

Today I started planning a fall break trip to Chicago to see one of my sisters, Sara, and stay with her for a few days. I AM SO EXCITED!!

Sleeping until noon, watching HOURS of tv and movies and eating free food. I'm soooooo sad this is my last summer as a "kid."

I always think of him when I go home..

But just as I was pushing him from my mind, I lay down on my bed, and his face peaks out from a nook in my room. A forgotten photo, reminding me I cannot escape him.

I need this to stop, please.

In THE WORST MOOD EVER. Ideas to snap out of it?

12 more class days, three weeks until Hell Semester is over. Stay tuned to see if I can do it.

Also, I GOT A SUMMER JOB AS CONFERENCE ASSISTANT ON CAMPUS!!!!!!

I miss him terribly.

"Goodbye To You"

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

[Chorus]

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

[Chorus x2]

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

I used to think of someone completely different when I listened to this song. But now it's someone else, and it makes me sad. I miss him more that I thought I ever could. He would never try to find this thing, he gave up on that a long time ago. But I wish he would, just so he could see how much I still care for him.

I miss the way I used to celebrate Saint Patrick's Day and the person I would celebrate it with.

Hummmmmmm.

We all know I am NOT a religion person. However, this is something I could get on board with:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flying_Spaghetti_Monster